Question about "Lockdown" Meaning
Alright, so "JanuaryNineteen" and I were chatting about this among other things ;) and I just wanted to get some interpretations and thoughts on this because she and I have no idea what the hell it means or what the writers were trying to do with this. So... maybe some of you can shed some light on the "issue." Hopefully. Anyway I know we all want to forge on and just concentrate on Huddy being canon, and as Mariel told me, she only has watched Broken, once cuz of Lydia (as did I) but I for some inexplicable reason find this compelling and it nags and plagues my mind so I need to appease it, so please help! Why did the writers chose to cite Lydia's name when House was talking about what changed him and what his pain in his leg may be a fragment of???
Here are snippets of dialogue from the ep:
This brings up the puzzle and meaning for House to find about more about the patient's long lost love and for the patient to find House's.
Patient: "You don't want the test, in case the arterial wall is fine which would mean that the pain is coming from something else. (Pain in House's leg) What's her name?"
Later:
House's dialogue: "I like being alone. At least I convinced myself I'm better off that way. And then I met someone, at a psychiatric hospital of all places. SHE CHANGED ME. And then she left. *sigh* We're better off alone. We suffer alone. We die alone. What does it matter if you're the model husband or father of the year. Tomorrow will be the same for you."
Note: Ok! See I don't understand this! I mean he has always told himself he is better off alone, I get that but one moment that strikes poignantly in my mind and is reminscient of this is during the "Itch," when Wilson is trying to convince House to go to Cuddy's and House says, "I'm better off alone." Yeah, right. Again, bringing it back to CUDDY not Lydia. And pretty much the entire season 6 he was in a way trying to be the model House haha in the way of asking Cuddy if she needed a babysitter for Rachel, and getting off drugs, and etc. So this dialgoue makes me think back to his efforts to try and get Cuddy to think he has changed, not of Lydia, who he says, changed him! I just don't get it.
Towards th end of the Ep:
Patient: "I was ever never there when she needed me, so what right do I have to need her now?"
House: "None. Just means you're a hypocrite because obviously you do. Forget about rights, just tell her what you need to tell her."
Again, makes me think of Huddy, hasn't he just been wanting and trying to get Cuddy to see he is different and how he really feels. He asked her out on a date. Even in season 5, with the patient with frontal lobe disinhibition, he displayed that his remarks or comments about her zesty bod are really his honest opinion and him trying to state how good she looks. And in S6, he told her point blank, when she said she just wanted to be friends, "Funny. That's the last thing I want us to be." All of this reaks Huddy and I don't know wth the writers were trying to do by mentioning Lydia in the context of what really changed him.
To reiterate, I know we all should focus on Huddy being CANON, and not about this but I just need this to be clarified, but maybe it's just never meant to be, UGH. But I hope you guys can shed some light on it with some of your interpretations.
EDIT: Sorry LJ Fail, IDK why but it was deleted and now it's posted again, sorry.