Hungry? I wish.
So, I haven't eaten anything really significant in the last 3 days. I'm trying to take bites of power bars and bananas and yogurt and things, but everything I put in my mouth feels and tastes disgusting. I'm conscious of the fact that not eating is further depleting my body and my brain of what it needs to feel better, so now I'm obsessed with that, and it's just making everything worse. I keep thinking awful thoughts like, "They'll read these journal entries and they will be the last ones I ever write." But I need to get all this down. It's all I can do to feel halfway normal, just keep writing it. If I can get it all down in words then maybe I can get it all out of me. If I can get it all out of me then maybe I can get rid of it.
I never thought eating would be a problem for me. *shakes head*
I never thought eating would be a problem for me. *shakes head*