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3am
drunk
Debating on whether to keep up with lj or not from now on.
I don't need sympathy.
Its addictive.
sorry sad addictive.
Or being a show off.
I like myspace better anyway.
But honestly.
Thanks Amanda for the tugboat pics. and so soon. your fast
I'm always posting personal shit, thats indirect to people who will never know or care what it means.
Then I hate myself the next day for even saying anything. When I had no reason but to let it out to keep sane in the first place.
Vicious circle really.
This is where I fade out usually.
I hate it.
I can't take it though.
I need to escape.
I have a scar in my forehead (like Harry Potter) not really but it was where I had gotten into a sniffing contest with my best friend in high school's dog. The dog was sniffing at my face to see if I was ok but I though that she was playing and sniffed right back. She proceeded to K-9 my nose and forehead (for which I should have had a few stickes), Nearly broke my nose and bloodied and brused my face. The whole time my "best friend" made me say I was ok or tried to convince me that I was fine in order to keep the dog that had already attacked someone else that week. The parents of this girl were gonna put the dog to sleep if it attacked again. Let just say I have a scar to remind me who not to be friends with. Thats what keeps me aware and open eyed about who I trust.
Long story but anyway. I should get some rest.
Its hard to know who will be with you when it all falls down but we shall see none the less.
drunk
Debating on whether to keep up with lj or not from now on.
I don't need sympathy.
Its addictive.
sorry sad addictive.
Or being a show off.
I like myspace better anyway.
But honestly.
Thanks Amanda for the tugboat pics. and so soon. your fast
I'm always posting personal shit, thats indirect to people who will never know or care what it means.
Then I hate myself the next day for even saying anything. When I had no reason but to let it out to keep sane in the first place.
Vicious circle really.
This is where I fade out usually.
I hate it.
I can't take it though.
I need to escape.
I have a scar in my forehead (like Harry Potter) not really but it was where I had gotten into a sniffing contest with my best friend in high school's dog. The dog was sniffing at my face to see if I was ok but I though that she was playing and sniffed right back. She proceeded to K-9 my nose and forehead (for which I should have had a few stickes), Nearly broke my nose and bloodied and brused my face. The whole time my "best friend" made me say I was ok or tried to convince me that I was fine in order to keep the dog that had already attacked someone else that week. The parents of this girl were gonna put the dog to sleep if it attacked again. Let just say I have a scar to remind me who not to be friends with. Thats what keeps me aware and open eyed about who I trust.
Long story but anyway. I should get some rest.
Its hard to know who will be with you when it all falls down but we shall see none the less.