♫ IS MY DRUG ♫
01) Write 20 things you wish you could say to people, but never will.
02) Don't say who they are.
03) Never discuss it again.
02) Don't say who they are.
03) Never discuss it again.
- I really, really love you as a friend, but honest to God I wish you'd say if you didn't want me around. Really, I hate it when I feel like I'm unwanted, so if you just don't like me anymore please just say so. I'd miss you, but I wouldn't hold anything against you. Things change, even I know that.
- You, my goodness you're the biggest flake I've ever met in my entire life. Yes, things happen, but when you apologize over and over for the same bloody thing it feels rather fake after a while. You do realize how much you worry me? How torn up I would be if you just disappeared? When you said you'd be back from wherever you were at such and such time I worried like hell when you never showed up. I used to stay up until around three am when you didn't bother. I thought there had been an accident on your way back home (it's a long drive). I even would when I had school and would be so dead tired the next day. Yeah, you mean that much to me, and it feels like you really take it for granted sometimes. If you don't think you'll be able to show up, please just say so. I hate it when people make false promises constantly.
- Dear lord, you've gotten so insensitive lately, it's ridiculous. I know you're in love and that it hurts, but please be mindful that I have feelings to. There are some days when I feel like absolutely worthless shit, but I still listen to you and try to help. You do have a tendency to be rather insensitive and rude when I do try and help calm you down and that pisses me off a little. Yes, you're in love, but you're young. Ever heard of the Shakespearean play Romeo and Juliet? You're one goddamn star-crossed lover, and that isn't healthy at all.
- Have more confidence.
- I wish I could talk to you, but it feels like we've drifted so far apart. We used to buddy chat together and now we don't. I miss it 8(
- I haven't talked to you in a while, but I did recently and I feel so distanced from you. I wish I knew what you were thinking now.
- You need to realize that yes, people tell you they wish you were normal or that you need to change, but everyone is told that. Why do these people do these stupid, retarded things sometimes? They love you so, so much. They took you under their roof when they didn't have to, feed you, finally give you the education you deserve, try and get you out of your room every so often, and bring you over to your relatives every so often. You have alot of problems and that's okay, but I think you need to be a bit more thankful for them. Mine are dead and they had so many mental problems I never even got to know how they were when they were well. Sometimes it makes me really angry when you go on about them.