hmmmm

Nov 20, 2007 14:37

so. ummm.
i feel shaky. uhh. its just all so weird.
i have my own home now. i have my own apartment. it is still in the process of being painted and what not, but its mine. and thats all that matters. and i finally can't wait until i actually move in. and have my own space. and not be living in someone else's space or out of boxes... it feels like i have been doing that for years, and the truth is- it has been years. so. i kinda feel a little grown up because of that. i have my own money. i get to go to stores with my money and choose what stuff or colors i want for my little home.
i know its not really a big deal. but to me it is. im excited. and scared. but, it is all good stuff.
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so also, i have a gig at the gig coming up this coming sunday night. which i think will be really special this time. just because, i say so. so you should all come.
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and i just checked my email. i think this is why i am shaking still. i got an email from the booking manager from the gig, who doesnt work there anymore. we exchanged many emails over the last six months, and it was obvious she had a liking for me and my playing, and i never understood why a rocker chick like her who has been booking gigs in hollywood for over ten years had such a liking for me. but she did. and ive been grateful for that because it has really helped me to feel a little more comfortable in the discomfort that comes along the process of talking and booking and putting myself out there in the world of hollywood gigs.
and. she doesnt work for the gig anymore, now she works for this huge booking agency for all of LA. i havent heard from her since she left the gig about over a month ago. and in this email she said that she wants me to do a gig with this chick named ryan starr at the viper room, and that its a big industry event. and its in three weeks.
and thats ridiculous. first of all, i dont even know who ryan starr is. i checked her music myspace, and she looks like a model, and has a good voice and all. but it just seems weird if i would be playing with her.
but its an awesome opportunity.
so. thats it i guess.
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life is just so odd sometimes when i just show up for it.
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