So yea......
so i met this chick on Rappelz. my online rpg game. and we started talking and such. and now were talking on the phone. so now shes coming to see me in 2 weeks... she knows about my condition and she knows about my living situatation. shes also, 28 years old. and im 22. a total different mindset from what i have right now. im still figuring out what the fuck im gonna do with my life. when hers is alrdy established. its tough. shes so awesome even thought ive never seen her in person. but i will sooner or later. sooner.. meaning in 2 weeks. but yea. its gonna be fkn crazy cauz i gotta find money to buy dinner and such.... im so nervous. im so scared. she wants me to grow up. i dont know if i can give what she needs.... i can defend. and provide help and a safe enviroment.. but financially right now im fucked. i told her not to wait for me and she said shes going to anyways.. but i dont know what that means either. i guess its time for a serious relationship. which means ill probably end up moving as well. i would so move for someone that i love.