So tell me
How much force would it take to run head on into a brick wall to cause myself enough harm to not have to feel this anymore. Anything would be better than the emptiness I feel. Anything. Fucking call me emo, I fucking dare you. People have no fucking idea what the fuck goes through my head. People have no fucking idea how fucking empty my heart fucking feels. ALL I FUCKING WANT IS A PERSON TO GIVE IT TO! I just want someone who I can give my heart to and say I love you to. Someone who will tell me they love me. Someone who will hurt as bad as I do right now if I rejected them the way I've been rejected so much.
I'm so FUCKING SICK of being fucking ADORABLE! Fuck that word! Seriously! I fucking hate it!! I'm not your fucking little sister, so stop fucking saying that. I don't want to hear it anymore. I want to be hot. I want to be sexy. I want a fucking guy to hold me in his fucking arms and say "Baby, you're gorgeous. I love you." That's way too much to ask for.
I want a fucking best friend. I want a friend I can trust. I want a friend who will cheer me up. GUESS THE FUCK WHAT FOLKS! TELLING ME TO FUCKING SUCK IT UP AND FUCKING DEAL WITH IT DOESN'T FUCKING DO A GOD DAMN FUCKING THING!!!!!!! I. FUCKING. KILL. INSIDE! I hurt SO bad.
But no one knows that. Fucking no one knows how fucking bad I really am right now. No one even fucking gives a shit. I'm the motherfucking "happy" girl. My fucking role in life is to make yours better. Thats all. I can't ever be sad, can I?!
I'm in such a bad fucking spot. I'm so fucking pissed at where I'm at in life. Not ONE fucking thing brings me happiness. NOT ONE THING!!!! DO YOU FUCKING KNOW HOW THAT FEELS?! TO BE SAD ABOUT EVERYTHING, BE CHEERED UP BY NOTHING, AND HAVE FUCKING NO ONE WHO CARES ENOUGH TO TRY TO DO ANYTHING TO STOP YOU FROM FUCKING KILLING YOURSELF?! How many fucking times do I have to say I'll do it before someone stops me? How many fucking times?! Fuck this. Fuck everything. Fuck everyone. Fuck life and fucking fuck EVERYTHING about it!
I'm so FUCKING SICK of being fucking ADORABLE! Fuck that word! Seriously! I fucking hate it!! I'm not your fucking little sister, so stop fucking saying that. I don't want to hear it anymore. I want to be hot. I want to be sexy. I want a fucking guy to hold me in his fucking arms and say "Baby, you're gorgeous. I love you." That's way too much to ask for.
I want a fucking best friend. I want a friend I can trust. I want a friend who will cheer me up. GUESS THE FUCK WHAT FOLKS! TELLING ME TO FUCKING SUCK IT UP AND FUCKING DEAL WITH IT DOESN'T FUCKING DO A GOD DAMN FUCKING THING!!!!!!! I. FUCKING. KILL. INSIDE! I hurt SO bad.
But no one knows that. Fucking no one knows how fucking bad I really am right now. No one even fucking gives a shit. I'm the motherfucking "happy" girl. My fucking role in life is to make yours better. Thats all. I can't ever be sad, can I?!
I'm in such a bad fucking spot. I'm so fucking pissed at where I'm at in life. Not ONE fucking thing brings me happiness. NOT ONE THING!!!! DO YOU FUCKING KNOW HOW THAT FEELS?! TO BE SAD ABOUT EVERYTHING, BE CHEERED UP BY NOTHING, AND HAVE FUCKING NO ONE WHO CARES ENOUGH TO TRY TO DO ANYTHING TO STOP YOU FROM FUCKING KILLING YOURSELF?! How many fucking times do I have to say I'll do it before someone stops me? How many fucking times?! Fuck this. Fuck everything. Fuck everyone. Fuck life and fucking fuck EVERYTHING about it!