Blaaaaah
I got wicked depressed tonight. No idea why. I just got really emo and went and layed down in my bed with all the lights off. Gah. Look back at my first entry. I was happy. My emoness was all gone. And lately its all come flooding back. All night I've felt incredibly lonely and unwanted. Its one of those times where i feel like no one reals. Everyones fake. People are really confusing the fuck out of me. Its like all my friends will like me sometimes, but at others they hate my guts. One second they'll be talking to me, and laughing, and having a blast and things'll be great. Then the next thing i know whenever i even try to get near them they walk away. I don't know. I just feel like no ones really here for me and can't help but blame that on myself. Maybe I'm a horrible friend. I mean, i get that I'm not the best, but i try really hard to keep my friends pleased and i just don't feel like its enough because i still feel like no one really even likes me that much. Ugh. I just wish this would go away.