Oct 19, 2006 22:24
So once again shit sucks for me right now.
First off, I feel like I have wasted....... 3 years of my life. Yes 3 fucking years. Why?? Cause I save my heart for this man who says he loves me and wants to be with me "forever" and what do I get in return??? Fucking thrown away like god damn garbage. FUCK YOU. God I am still so mad at you. You hurt me so bad.
Michelle (Karla for most of you who know her) and I aren't doing well at all. It's close to not seeing each other at all anymore. I'm trying so hard, but I just don't like what she is doing. I don't know how much longer I can stand it.
Me and JAckie are still fading away into nothing. I hung out with her for the first time in god knows how long. I mean, we still talk every day but it's not the same.
School is blowing hard core. I try so hard and I have 46's on tests to show for it. What a star student.
Patti hired a new chick for the days I am not there (Tuesdays and Thursdays) I have a feeling I will soon be weeded out of there.
I'm trying so hard. Just to get by. It all hurts right now.