ME!
it seems as though ive been thinking a lot.. and something tells me that most of my life will be spent thinking. Alot goes through my little brain even though it may seem like im happy and bubbly. i donno about life. sometimes it seems that its going perfect and then it jumps and takes weird turns i donno if i like that!! Im afraid of things, so many psycological things have happend 2 me. Mainly im afraid for anything that may lead 2 the mental abuse again. Sometimes i stay up late, and just cry because im not sure how or y such a strong person who believed in herself so much let someone just walk all over her. i put up with such abuse just by trying to make someone else happy. Many of u have no idea just how much i delt with. I can explain in general but its nothing that anyone can imagine unless u personally experience it. I guess im longing to forget about such an things and move on but truthfully i need time to get used 2 new things. Now that my life is better i am doing great in school and have wonderful friends that love me i just dont feel 100% back 2 my old self yet. I know that im on my way and that i know what i want this time and its not just 2 fill voids. im so glad that my friends are there for me and love me. Sometimes i know i can be a handful and sometimes i call u hundreds of times because i miss u or just because im worried about u or 2 make sure ur ok, but now i need 2 do things for me. For once in my life im going to have a New Years resolution... im going to live life for me, try new things for me, i think ive spent 2 much time worrying about if everone else is happy or needs anything but now i need 2 concentrate on me as well. ~ thats it for now.. ~Muah~