Pondering
I had a really strange/scary dream last night. I dreamt that I was at TIP and I'd completely forgotten to finish a homework assignment, so I'd gone to lunch with the intention of finishing it. Then I realized that it wasn't lunch yet and I was about an hr late to class. Melanie and Kathleen came to find me and we walked back together to Tension and Balance. However, as I walked in the door, they both disappeared and I went in alone. I apologized to Meredith, and got my things from my old seat so I can sit in a new one. That was when I realized that Peter wasn't there...and Natalia wasn't there...and Stefanija...and everyone else that was in my class. The only person I knew was Meredith. Judith was absent as well. I was so confused and then we started walking out the door as a class. I asked Meredith where everyone was, and she just said I was too late...and that they were gone, forever.
Then I woke up, terrified. As I realized it was only a dream, I was relieved since I didn't want them to be gone forever. Then I realized something else, something much worse: my dream was true. All those wonderful people would be gone from TIP in the future. I would never go to a class with those same 8 people I'd grown to love again. And that gave me an awful unsettled feeling in my stomach the rest of the day. Now I know how a psychic feels when she has an painful vision of the future. Since you know it's inevitable, all you can do is sit in dread. TIP will never be the same without my 4th yr friends. You guys have set such a high standard...will we be able to meet it? If only beauty wasn't always ephemeral along with happiness. Why must nothing gold stay? How can all these people I've come to love so much be scattered all over the world now, instead of all over the east campus? Is love worth the heartache that always comes after? Lana feels scared and lonely...I want a hug from those that I love...
Then I woke up, terrified. As I realized it was only a dream, I was relieved since I didn't want them to be gone forever. Then I realized something else, something much worse: my dream was true. All those wonderful people would be gone from TIP in the future. I would never go to a class with those same 8 people I'd grown to love again. And that gave me an awful unsettled feeling in my stomach the rest of the day. Now I know how a psychic feels when she has an painful vision of the future. Since you know it's inevitable, all you can do is sit in dread. TIP will never be the same without my 4th yr friends. You guys have set such a high standard...will we be able to meet it? If only beauty wasn't always ephemeral along with happiness. Why must nothing gold stay? How can all these people I've come to love so much be scattered all over the world now, instead of all over the east campus? Is love worth the heartache that always comes after? Lana feels scared and lonely...I want a hug from those that I love...