my dream
i had a dream last night. i know this is going to sound so cliche...but in my dream david came back. he was alive. this is how it went. i was in my front yard playing with my dog, when my phone rang. my cell phone to be exact.well..i looked on the caller Id, and i saw david quinn. i was overwhelmed with happiness.all of a sudden i see david walking down to my house. he had a big stupid smile on his face.i cried. i ran up to him and gave him a HUGEEEEEE hug and i kissed him like here was no tomrrow. i said i love you david..ut all i could hear was an echo of i love you in the air. he dissapeared like so quickly. i opened my eyes to wake up and his obituary was sitting on the pillow next to me.i want him back. i misss him so much. he was my "if were not married by the time we're 40,we'll track each other down" kinda deal thing. i remember when i used to get so upset bc ms shelia wanted to move away and mr dave wanted to move to oregan. i used to get so upset when he would tell me his parents are thinking about it. i would have never imagined him to die until he was an old man with gray hair and still looking at porn when he dies. but no, he was 16 young beautiful...he had the whole world in his hands. but he closed his handand he crushed everyone of us and now hes gone. i dont like pretending everyting is going to be okay. pretending is hard. pain is hard. i am depressed. i need help. i want him back. i really need help. i dont know how i am handling this right now. i need to be around people.lately i have been wishing i wasnt here and i was with him whereever he is. when i told him i loved him i meant forever.