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I'm sorry to all who this will affend but it is my journal and I'm gonna post this cause I'm feeling this way and I just need to let it out to my self. So don't read unless ur bored or wanna get pissed... k thx!
So get this shit...um my new little obsession lately has become myspace.com. Which in the beggining I thought to be amazing cause I can meet people from all over and not have limits to only knowing certain people. Well turns out I just spend all of my time browsing through peoples friends lists dreaming that I knew these people in real life. It's fucking a sick obsession.
It would be cool if I was satified knowing these people online but no... I want to go to the local starbucks and get coffee with them, I want to hang out with them, shop with them, dance with them. It's fucking sick. They are all so pretty and so glamorous. It's rediculous how trendy and hott they are?
I live in Chicago, where are these people here? No granted when looking at people I don't choose by state but most of the people I talk to or have on my friends list are from CA. Um not that I planned it, it just kinda happend everytime I saw someone that I would want to be friends with in real life they ended up being from CA.
I dunno about you but that's like a huge flag saying what the hell are you still doing in CHICAGO IL. I dunno to tell you the truth.
These people are hott and they know how to wear what they want just to wear it. They loves all the clothes that I do, they love the music, people, celebrities. They are like lil mini versions of what I aspire to be....
Now I have talked this over with my real life friends that live in chicago with me and this is what they tell me "your just like them in fact even more so but it's just easier for them cause they live in CA"...
I love all of my friends here but it would be nice to have some friends that share the same interests as me. I dunno...Im depressed, bf less, bestfriend less, CA less. Im just a mess. I think im gonna remove the comment feature from this post cause I don't dare discuss my problems even more in public.
(let me also just say how selfish you are justen for wanting more than you already have, shame on you!)
So get this shit...um my new little obsession lately has become myspace.com. Which in the beggining I thought to be amazing cause I can meet people from all over and not have limits to only knowing certain people. Well turns out I just spend all of my time browsing through peoples friends lists dreaming that I knew these people in real life. It's fucking a sick obsession.
It would be cool if I was satified knowing these people online but no... I want to go to the local starbucks and get coffee with them, I want to hang out with them, shop with them, dance with them. It's fucking sick. They are all so pretty and so glamorous. It's rediculous how trendy and hott they are?
I live in Chicago, where are these people here? No granted when looking at people I don't choose by state but most of the people I talk to or have on my friends list are from CA. Um not that I planned it, it just kinda happend everytime I saw someone that I would want to be friends with in real life they ended up being from CA.
I dunno about you but that's like a huge flag saying what the hell are you still doing in CHICAGO IL. I dunno to tell you the truth.
These people are hott and they know how to wear what they want just to wear it. They loves all the clothes that I do, they love the music, people, celebrities. They are like lil mini versions of what I aspire to be....
Now I have talked this over with my real life friends that live in chicago with me and this is what they tell me "your just like them in fact even more so but it's just easier for them cause they live in CA"...
I love all of my friends here but it would be nice to have some friends that share the same interests as me. I dunno...Im depressed, bf less, bestfriend less, CA less. Im just a mess. I think im gonna remove the comment feature from this post cause I don't dare discuss my problems even more in public.
(let me also just say how selfish you are justen for wanting more than you already have, shame on you!)