very very depressed

[hottbabi]

So in life theres certain events you fear. For instance death or losing someone you care about. Well one of my fears came true, i lost one of the things i love the most, one of the things i love with all my heart and i cant let go, and i dont know how. Me and Chaz broke up, now i dont know how to get over him, how to let go of this love, how to leave it behind, he means the world to me, like life with him was so much better, he filled that gap i had, he filled my life with happiness, and that's all i could've ever asked for. Now it's gone, and i dont know how to repair it. My heart is shattered in millions of pieces, and i cant stop crying, this hurts so bad. I seriously dont know how or when did i fall in love so deeply, but i did and i dont regret it i just wish it would've lasted for ever, it was perfect, from the moment i met him, it felt perfect. I would do anything, give anything for him. And now im lost with out him. I wish i knew what to do, but now it's all a blur, it's all lost in my head, and my heart doesnt know how to recover how to let go of a love so great. Life sucks, and so does love, sometimes i just wish i could stop breathing, so things wouldnt hurt as bad, but no matter waht they willa lways hurt.

goodbye
Johanna