okay...life deff.. sucks

[hottbabi]

Since i havent been able to be on a computer all week a bunch of stuff or not really...happened. Sunday i went to pick up my little cousin in miami and i spent some time with my nephew he is so freakin adorable. Monday went to school it was kinda gay, tuesday same thing 'cept for that i had my chem. exam which i thought it was gonna be extremely hard but it really wasnt, at least i think i got a C on it which is good. Wed. had weights and english exams...did real good on both of 'em. Thurs. history w/beisner..got a 100 hahah sweeeet!! and volleyball exam ..got a 100 too..funny huh. Friday math..haha we all copied but i think at least a B or a C and French (SOOO EASY).... Umm other than that tuesday night Chaz drove down here from Jacksonville, and i saw him wednesday morning, he came over like at at 5:30am that was funny me up so early LOL. Then Thursday we went to sanibel with Robyn and i saw him surf, which was kinda kool then he took me to dinner that was nice. Yesterday he picked me up from my dad's house and we went to the ringer, i had never been there and it's a pretty sweet place. Then went to the mall, and saw a few ppl. Then went to Samson's house, then dropped josh off, back to samsons, then to derek S, then back had some fun and went to bed. This morning woke up, chilled, went over to Robyn'shouse for a while, then to chaz's house, his mom is so nice. After that he brought me home like at 1. Tonight i wanna hang out with my friends but i also wanna hang out with him, so i dunno what to do. If my plans go as i want them to go i think i will chill with my friends tonight or maybe ill just stay home, who knows. some bad news though. i dont think i can stand this me and chaz thing, last weekend was our anniversary but i havent seen him for more than 3 months so it's kinda gay, idk what to do he means so much to me and i lovehim with all my heart, but things arent right. I dont even think im still going with him to jacksonville because as soon as he gets there he's gonna move into his own place and he says he doesnt want me there when he's gonna be so busy and that i can go after he's settled so we'll see if i even end up going now. He's been acting weird too we've had many talks about this relationship already and it doesnt seem t be going anywhere. Makes me sad and breaks my heart, but we'll see what happens, hopefully something good because i love him so much it drives me crazy but it breaks my heart that we're not together and that i dont see him and all this bunch of different things. Well im gonna go figure out if i m doing something tonight or not. So i will check yall late.
PEACE OUT
<33Johanna