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Only about 2-2.5 months until I leave for Hawaii for a good long time, and it seems to be taking forever. I've applied to 50 jobs, and been offered 2 interviews, not to mention sending applications to multiple staffing agencies without a word at all yet, and between my lack of funds, feelings of failure and uselessness, and my mother's continued descent into despair in which she barely gets out of bed unless absolutely necessary, leaving me to pick up the slack, I feel like I'm falling apart. I am so depressed I don't really leave the house anymore, and no one seems to have really noticed. I've tried getting in touch with people but everyone seems to have their own things going on, which is what I wish I were saying about myself. My mother keeps trying to guilt me into staying, but the more she tries to hold me back the more determined I am to leave, if for no other reason than to prove I'm not like her. My brother is giving me an awesome chance to turn my life around and spend time with him, and as the days go by here, wasted, I honestly can't think of a reason to stay anymore.
My friend Lori mentioned she has extra tickets to see the Dalai Lama, so I may end up going to the event at Lehigh. Maybe that will help put things in perspective, but for now I just wish it were october already...
My friend Lori mentioned she has extra tickets to see the Dalai Lama, so I may end up going to the event at Lehigh. Maybe that will help put things in perspective, but for now I just wish it were october already...