what was i thinking being a theatre major!?!?!?! i am scared to death!!
so, ok, i really do love theatre and despite everything really do believe it's my right place. i'm just completely freaked out right now. i was ok with everything in my voice and speech class right up until we had to start "word exploration". one thing we have to do now is present a poem that we wrote about our voice to the class. the only thing is that we have to actually feel the words. to anyone who doesn't do theatre that jsut sounds crazy but there you have it. i don't even know where to begin there. i'll admit that scares me to death. but to add to the freaked out factor here, last monday i auditioned for the one acts and while i did have a blast, i didn't actually get a role. when i was talking to trish today she was going on and on about how fabulously i did in the audition and how impressed she was that i did that. mostly because the first time i met her i assured her that i did NOT act. hell, i shake in church when i stand up to give a testimony. anyways, she then asked me if it would totally freak me out to find out that i acutally was in a production. when i asked her what she ment she said that when i auditioned it was realyl close in the end between me and this other girl. now, kate isn't coming back so she can't do the show so the girl directing it wants to move around the other two roles and put me in the show. AAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! it's like a dream come true but i'm too scared to follow through. today was the first time ever that i came out of voice and speech tense and uncomfortable. my stomach had curled up and i could not eat anything at lunch. now, i'm slightly less freaked out but not really and i am thinking that i could really use a massage. actually, those were kind of seperate thoughts that came out as one. whatever. AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!