The Leap Year
Funny how we have a leap year built in. If I were president, i'd build an extra day in the week just specifically for chillin. Doing nothing. Relaxing. Or i would take tuesday out of the week cuz its pointless. Funny how that has nothing to do with my entry.
The question of the day is: Do I know any more information than i did the last time i wrote? Answer: Definitely. What do i know now that i didn't know before? I know that weather forecasters have no idea what they're doing. I know that doormen pay very close attention to I.D. when you try to get into a strip club. And i know that the phrase "We're too good of friends, It would be weird to go out w/you." is a bunch of baloney and is just an excuse not to go out w/someone u dont like in that way. But sometimes it can be the truth. And i think i know why now. You know how I know? I'll explain. But this is a good scenario not a bad one. When i first moved to L.A. i met this girl who used to go to my chruch. She's very pretty also. But one way or another we got to talkin to each other and callin each other and so on. She had a b/f, but i've come to find that that never matters. Which is something everyone should know. If you didn't before, now u know something more than when u wrote last time. But moving along.....We became friends and she knew i liked her and possibly wanted to pursue something w/her. She was like ok i think we could do that so holla at me when me and my b/f break up. They did. (no thanks to me....) So we liked each other and all and after a while, i guess things just weren't workin out so we never went out. We decided we'd rather be friends for now. But since then we became really really close friends. I could say she's one of my best friends now. But she ends up setting me up w/her friend, my ex, the girl who claimed she was depressed when we broke up. But it didnt work out and so on. So i was hangin out w/my really good friend 2 weeks ago. I took her to see You got Served and then we went to Denny's to eat. And i noticed the way she looked at me during the night. She's looked at me that way before but i never paid attention to it until then. If u dont know what look i'm talkin about just ask me later. But when i drop her off at her house we're chillin in the car talkin and she looks at me and says "Chris i just gotta ask u somethin." took her a while but eventually she asked me if i liked her. I smiled and said "wouldn't you like to know." Then i asked her why and how she felt about me. She told me for the longest time she just couldnt stop thinking about me and when she set me up w/her friend she realized she had feelings for me. She told me she likes me and i told her likewise because i've wanted to be w/her forever. But we both agreed not to start anything because we might want to settle down w/each other in the future and get married so we dont wanna screw it up now by being impatient. I would die if i lost her she's that important to me. So when we were done talking we amitted we liked each other and that we were on the same page on what we wanted to do about it. So we ended up kissing that night and i drove home w/a huge grin on my face. You would think things got weird after that the next day we talked. But it didn't because we didn't let it and we just talked and laughed about it. Well i saw her this weekend too and before i left her house we stood outside holding each other in the cold, kissed, and i went home, but not smiling this time. I was concerned. About the fact that even though we are not b/f and g/f, we act like it sometimes so we might as well be. So put a lot of thought into it. And Being the gentlemen that i am, i think i've decided to slow things way down and go back to bein regular friends w/out the benefits. She's way too important to me to screw things up now and not have her for the future. I'm not sure if she's feeling what i'm feeling or not. Now the question of tomorrow is: Do I bring it up and say Hey let's slow it down? Or just go w/the flow and see where that leads me.
Keep in mind: She's irresistable.