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Long time no update....
Well, things have been super busy, I've made lots of accomplishments, yeah go me!
I have someone that cares for me very much, but....
I've been thinking alot lately, and I guess I have a catalyst named Mark who makes my mind race and think about every relationship I have ever had.
I keep thinking about what I had, a best friend, a lover, someone I could totally be myself around. Totally fucked that up and still think what if...
And now I have a great person who cares about me greatly, but it seems everything I do or say he disagrees with or interprets wrong and it turns into a semi-heated debate.
It was brought to my attention that I "act" different around him, am I scared to be myself around him, or deep down inside I know he won't like what he'll see if I do?
:-(
Well, things have been super busy, I've made lots of accomplishments, yeah go me!
I have someone that cares for me very much, but....
I've been thinking alot lately, and I guess I have a catalyst named Mark who makes my mind race and think about every relationship I have ever had.
I keep thinking about what I had, a best friend, a lover, someone I could totally be myself around. Totally fucked that up and still think what if...
And now I have a great person who cares about me greatly, but it seems everything I do or say he disagrees with or interprets wrong and it turns into a semi-heated debate.
It was brought to my attention that I "act" different around him, am I scared to be myself around him, or deep down inside I know he won't like what he'll see if I do?
:-(