Happiness is not a fish you can catch
alright, I know it has been about forever since I've updated. I don't mean to slack, really...I'm just not in the greatest of moods. You know, every know and then I just get into a funk. (Yes, a funk) And it's really hard for me to get out of it..The last one I was in basically lasted all first semester. Oh, well, can't win them all...
So this past week was Winter Break. What did I do? Made an insane amount of trips up to Lafayette (eye exam, mall twice, and super target), worked a couple days at Walmart (made me want to kill myself), and lazed around (probably my favorite part of the break)...Of course it did get depressing yesterday when I was packing and I found some pictures of me from my senior year of HS getting ready for prom. Yeah, I was about 20-25 lbs skinnier, and didn't look like a total train wreck. Soooo....yeah needless to say, I will not be allowing myself to eat again. Ever. Just kidding, but I gotta get out of looking like I do. It's what brings me down...
Speaking of depressing, I've been turned down THREE times for formal...this is re-dic-u-lous. I mean, who turns down a night of drinking and dancing with the Phi Mus?!?!?! I mean, yeah it's with me....am i really that bad? Because I didn't think I was. And it pisses me off. AAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to hit something. I've never been turned down by anyone for a dance before.....never. why start now....oh that's right, b/c guys hate me. GAH. I quit. I'm real mad right now, and getting desperate. I feel like the only guy who'd go with me is an inflatable one....
Oh, well I woke up in hell today
I woke up depressed and drained
But that's okay 'cause
I promised not to hurt you again
And apparently I'm to blame
But apparently I've been framed
By a memory that won't help
Me when it's happening
Out of the mind
Out of the soul
Out of the light
Out of control
Standing in the middle of yesterday
Where it all went wrong
Where we made mistakes
I'm sorry for the things I forgot to say
But it won't be long
And it will be okay
--Our Lady Peace