and i figure that i just might make it
it's amazing how much can, and ineveitably will, change in a year.
last year, i made mary a picture frame of "the family" for christmas.
this year, i barely see mary - but we still talk so that's good, i never see or talk to chris or dave, and i'm lucky if collin and i talk ever, much less see each other. i still see sita... 1 out of 5 people, that's ridiculous.
last year, i hung out at the house every evening with "the family".
this year, there is no family, and i hang out with completely different people at completely different places.
last year, farnsworth was an adorable and annoying kitten that fit in your hand and wouldn't stay off the table at the house.
this year, i have no idea if he still jumps up on the table cause i'm not there anyways. and he certainly can't fit in your hand anymore, he's huge.
last year, i was waitressing and going to school.
this year, i'm done with school (for now) and have a full time job.
last year, i was dealing with trying to get over joel.
this year, i'm dealing with trying to get over collin... only this time it's totally different cause he meant (means) alot more to me than joel ever did.
last year, my skin looked terrible and i was still learning how to be happy with myself physically.
this year, my skin has cleared up, and i realized that alot of people would kill for my little petite body, and i can't do much about it anyways so i figure i might as well be happy with it.
last year, i saw kari once when she came home for christmas.
this year, she lives at home again and i get to see her all the time - yay! :)
last year, i was jealous that i didn't work at the zoo with everyone.
this year, i'm SO grateful i didn't take the job at the zoo that i was offered over the summer.
last year, collin bought me a diamond necklace for christmas.
this year, i'll be lucky if he calls me to wish me a merry christmas.
last year, i gave back the diamond necklace that collin bought me, because i felt bad that i didn't feel the same way about him and didn't want to lead him on.
this year, we've switched roles in how we feel about the other person. talk about being led on - i was led on for 6 years.
oh yeah, and this year i learned that if i guy gives me jewelry, i should keep it and not give it back.
last year, my family had our christmas day celebration downstairs at val's.
this year, nobody in my family will ever make that mistake again, and we don't know where christmas is gonna be because we don't have a kitchen!
and this year... we're getting a fancy new kitchen at home... ooh.
i could go on with this stuff for pages and pages... these are the big things that were on my mind though. please don't comment on this if you don't agree with what i've said or have something negative to say about any of it - it's a waste of your time typing it and a waste of mine cause i'm just gonna delete it. the point of me creating a journal was supposed to be so i could write what i want in it - no matter what it is - and not have to worry about if someone else agrees with it or not. that's not to say i don't ever want anyone commenting on my journal, i just don't want to have to deal with stupid crap. thanks :)
anyways... my job is going great. i can rest easy now knowing that it's officially mine. i got a raise, i'll have full benefits starting the first of the year, and i'm thinking very seriously about getting a car. i'd like to move out... but i don't know yet. a car would be nice, and just so much more convenient.
ok i'm done with my breakfast, time to get back to work.
last year, i made mary a picture frame of "the family" for christmas.
this year, i barely see mary - but we still talk so that's good, i never see or talk to chris or dave, and i'm lucky if collin and i talk ever, much less see each other. i still see sita... 1 out of 5 people, that's ridiculous.
last year, i hung out at the house every evening with "the family".
this year, there is no family, and i hang out with completely different people at completely different places.
last year, farnsworth was an adorable and annoying kitten that fit in your hand and wouldn't stay off the table at the house.
this year, i have no idea if he still jumps up on the table cause i'm not there anyways. and he certainly can't fit in your hand anymore, he's huge.
last year, i was waitressing and going to school.
this year, i'm done with school (for now) and have a full time job.
last year, i was dealing with trying to get over joel.
this year, i'm dealing with trying to get over collin... only this time it's totally different cause he meant (means) alot more to me than joel ever did.
last year, my skin looked terrible and i was still learning how to be happy with myself physically.
this year, my skin has cleared up, and i realized that alot of people would kill for my little petite body, and i can't do much about it anyways so i figure i might as well be happy with it.
last year, i saw kari once when she came home for christmas.
this year, she lives at home again and i get to see her all the time - yay! :)
last year, i was jealous that i didn't work at the zoo with everyone.
this year, i'm SO grateful i didn't take the job at the zoo that i was offered over the summer.
last year, collin bought me a diamond necklace for christmas.
this year, i'll be lucky if he calls me to wish me a merry christmas.
last year, i gave back the diamond necklace that collin bought me, because i felt bad that i didn't feel the same way about him and didn't want to lead him on.
this year, we've switched roles in how we feel about the other person. talk about being led on - i was led on for 6 years.
oh yeah, and this year i learned that if i guy gives me jewelry, i should keep it and not give it back.
last year, my family had our christmas day celebration downstairs at val's.
this year, nobody in my family will ever make that mistake again, and we don't know where christmas is gonna be because we don't have a kitchen!
and this year... we're getting a fancy new kitchen at home... ooh.
i could go on with this stuff for pages and pages... these are the big things that were on my mind though. please don't comment on this if you don't agree with what i've said or have something negative to say about any of it - it's a waste of your time typing it and a waste of mine cause i'm just gonna delete it. the point of me creating a journal was supposed to be so i could write what i want in it - no matter what it is - and not have to worry about if someone else agrees with it or not. that's not to say i don't ever want anyone commenting on my journal, i just don't want to have to deal with stupid crap. thanks :)
anyways... my job is going great. i can rest easy now knowing that it's officially mine. i got a raise, i'll have full benefits starting the first of the year, and i'm thinking very seriously about getting a car. i'd like to move out... but i don't know yet. a car would be nice, and just so much more convenient.
ok i'm done with my breakfast, time to get back to work.