~Back At School~
Well the break is over and i'm back at school. Glad to be back, but home is always somewhere i wouldn't mind being. The break wasnt too bad, it had its high and lows... with good times like always.
I ended up having dinner with Monika last night... it was quite relaxing, full of sincereity and smiles, leaving myself very content. I missed that girl... she was my winter romance... and it became nothing but that. I don't know where i went wrong with her. I think i was scared of not satisfying her desired necessities in a guy.... and i choked. There were things i said i wish i could take back and replace with what i really felt... but there was more to it than that. I've matured in my mind a hell of a lot since then... i only want to go back and tell my 17 year old life how to act, and what to feel... to not get his hopes up because in the end they'd only bring him down...
... sometimes it hurts to look...
... but i keep comming back for more...
I ended up having dinner with Monika last night... it was quite relaxing, full of sincereity and smiles, leaving myself very content. I missed that girl... she was my winter romance... and it became nothing but that. I don't know where i went wrong with her. I think i was scared of not satisfying her desired necessities in a guy.... and i choked. There were things i said i wish i could take back and replace with what i really felt... but there was more to it than that. I've matured in my mind a hell of a lot since then... i only want to go back and tell my 17 year old life how to act, and what to feel... to not get his hopes up because in the end they'd only bring him down...
... sometimes it hurts to look...
... but i keep comming back for more...