Agh
Yeah A bunch of guy's are trying to be with me but i dont like any of them . Man im so picky If they do one thing i dont like i fucking start feeling disgusted by them. But i saw robert last night man oh man why does he always look good ? What the fuck man.. Im really trying not to do shit with him but its so hard to bring myself to these mediocre idiots ! Noone is as smart as him, handsome nor talented.. in many categories. Well whatever if he doesnt try i just cant try anymore.. Well on to better news I got a pictue phone !!!!!! It was so rad yesterdaay alyx got free passes from her work and we went to universal studios and rode the hollywood tour and i took a bunch of pictures and whats great you can upload em omg !! robert and i were sending eachother pictures teehee. Man i dont want to feel for his bullshit again.. im sick of it .. i want him to work for me cause i see how others do and i guess it wouldnt be fair otherwise to me .. but at the same time i miss him and he said he did too.. but i dont believe him anymore its so hard to .. man i need to stop talking about him. Well i think i know what im doing.. im taking my proficiency and moving to portland to go to culinary art school, with alyx.. man oh man there are some fine ass men in portland !!!! Like cody ::drool:: ahh man.. see this was a plan before and then last night robert says im moving to portland and im like MOTHERFUCKER !! I cant escape him man.. he's llike a horrible addiction. That first shot feels like heaven then there's the coming down and then withdrawl. The withdrawl is the worst of it all.. missing him knowing he couldnt give two shits about you, and it always starts again.. Well fuck i havent talked once about warped tour !!! IT WAS AWESOME !!!!!!! I made alot of friends , like the river city rebels , the mean reds , a faith called chaos, billy talent, rolling balckouts... and the sounds know jasten and me !!! i got drunk with their guitarist and keyboardist man they make em well in sweden noone but the bassiest is ugly in that band.. they're all perfect. haha and the last day of warped tour we we're all throwing firecrackers(mean reds, rolling blackouts) and i threw on and lars frederiksen was walking to go shoot bb guns and well yeah lets just say i almost blew up lars frederiksen haha he's a white supremacist anyways that guy sucks dick. well i think im gonna go back to bed.. too early for this being up buisness.. But all in all i think im doing fine . i quit coke and all that business .. i feel better.. I was really scarred for myself i was getting out of hand, im lucky i didnt end up in a worse place. My 2 year run is over. So please dont pass the white my way.