heartbroken

[hotpinkcaviar]

ive never really had anyone in my life that ive really been close to ( family wise) die... and today we founf outthat my dog had stomach tumors...now hes really old but thats what makes it worse ive had him since i was in 3rd grade i love him so much it hurts...anytime i thought sumone hated me ithought they were gonna come hurt him i know im wierd... hes the most amaing dog..no matter how old he is hes always my puppy my dog that was with me threw all my family bullshit born on the 94' earthquake big beaultiful eyes big fluffy ears..he was my giant chocolatebunny rabbit...my moms a mess she cries soo much i knwo were iget it form and i hate crying in front of her cause i want to be strong and help her threw it but when it comesdown to it im prob worse than here... my little brother and i are here at home im watching him whil the parents are taking care of business and my little brother heard me crying and said " dont cry about dakota erin hell be ok " ..we havnt told him yet and i dont know how hes gonna handle it...now all we have are memories or cody..his weird nosies and smells im actually gonna miss. the last few months hes been sick and hurting and really effectionate the lsat time i saw him was last night when i came home he was running around in the back yard at midnight probobly in pain...and the last time i petted him was before i left yestrday we looked eachotheri n the eyes and he looked so sadand i just siad " cody i love u dont forget it puppy" im not really writing this for anyone but myself but it will be public just cause those who know him should read this im gonna miss him alot and i cant stop crying.... all thats left in the house thats furry is simon ( my cat) him and dakota were best friends and its just gonna be wierd in this big house without my big dog walking around and racing me up stairs...

I lvoe you coda