Mar 13, 2006 21:43
Listening to Patsy Cline and re-living memories I will never have again. I had a dream about R.A. a couple nights ago and I woke up feeling so empty. If only I could take back some things I had said or maybe done things differently, would it really matter? I guess that's what happens when you're on drugs. Things fall into place and fall apart all at once. I do not regret the choices I have made, but I do wonder.
Do you know how wonderful it is to say that you sat off to the side and watched your best friend fall in love with someone completely unexpected, yet not one word of that process was ever spoken between anyone? Or, before she even knew what had happened between them. That is so real, and the idea of it is so far beyond me.