Goodbye............

[hotmoney55]

The day i have dreaded has finally come. After a morning spent wondering what will be her fate, i finally received it bluntly. This morning I took the train home from Olga's and finally saw my baby for the first time in a week. She looked a little tired, and a bit cold, but overall she looked the same. Her eyes were dry and bloodshot and you could see the crust and dried tears had formed stains on her cheeks. She coughed uncontrollably when I tried to move her and muttered gibberish when she tried to talk. The shakes that she got slowly went away after a few minutes, but there was no hiding it anymore, she was not the same. The packs a cigarettes she had smoked in her youth were finally coming back to haunt her as it looked like a smoke stack was following her wherever we went. We get to our destination, i make sure she is warm, i give her a kiss on the forehead and tell her ill be right back. I walked into the Doctors office. As i walked in the door i hear "Its no use, its her head gasket." I look around, "he couldnt possibly be talking to me, he must be on the phone, how would he know, he hasnt even seen her yet." I take her key off the key ring. "Dont bother,it's not worth it" he says, "come on lets go have a look" we go outside, he says to sit her up right so he can have a listen, so i turn her on, and he gets a whiff, and before she is on for more than a second, he says to lay her back down, hes seen enough. I come around to see him. "shes been through a lot, you've gotten many more years than we both expected. i've done all i can, we can transplant, but her body isnt in good enough condition." He steps closer, putting his arm around me, "You've taken really good care of her and shes done very well for you, but theres only so much you can do." Clutching me tighter "there's no use, its time to let her go." I feel a tear well up in my eye, and my heart sinks. Tugbert has seen her last days. as i drive her back home, smoke still bellowing, i can barely get her to move, it like some one threw her walker away and she is crawling home with me on her back. we barely make it back into the drive way before she starts spewing antifreeze. I turn her off and sit for a bit, thinking about all the good times we had.

well thats it for Tugbert. She will be sitting in my driveway until i have to give in the plates if anyone want to pay their respects.

It is a sad day.....

Never forget you....