It's so hard to say goodbye....
All my bags are packed I'm ready to go....except instead of leaving on a jet plane....I'm leaving in a completely packed van...and I'm not fully ready to go....I mean clothing and stuff-wise I am...but emotionally...def not....
The Hollerers stopped by tonight to say goodbye along with Renee and her mom....my aunt Joan and cousin Jessi and grandma was over earlier....I didn't really cry when my friends left....except for the kinda fake crying that we were all doing...kinda mocking each other...but when they left it really hit me....I won't be seeing them for another at least 2 months....wow.....that's when I cried....and then I didn't really stop...as my parents and I were loading the van...I just continued to cry....and as I am writing this...I have tears in my eyes...I love my friends so much....we are so incredibly close....and my life is going to be so different without them.....then when my parents saw me crying...they cried too...even my mom....which is crazy....cause she NEVER cries....EVER.....she said I was just nervous and that's normal and not to worry and that I'm gonna do fine on my own.....this just made me cry more...cause I realize now how much I'm gonna miss my family as well.....ughhh...I hate all this crying!!!
Steve has called me like 10 times in the past few days ...and either I haven't picked up or when I pick up I tell him I'll call him back and then I never do.....everything has just been so crazy these past few days I haven't really been able to talk....I don't want him to think I'm already forgetting about him....because I'm not and never will.....
At least I finally have everything packed though....and I finished that prom/graduation album I had wanted to finish before I left....so at least I could breathe some sort of sigh of relief....
I'm gonna go finish some last minute things....e-mail me from now on at ab4151a@american.edu....but I'll still have Cutie12587 on AIM...this will prob be my last entry for a while.....I love you guys all so much!!!....I could never fully express in words how I feel about all of you...thank you for making my last night on Long Island so special....Hollerers forever!!!
*Note for anyone who has come across this journal and who is wondering if once I got to school I stopped writing in it...the answer is no I didn't stop writing...but from here on all of my entries are locked to friends only so unless you're on my friends list you won't be reading about my life*
The Hollerers stopped by tonight to say goodbye along with Renee and her mom....my aunt Joan and cousin Jessi and grandma was over earlier....I didn't really cry when my friends left....except for the kinda fake crying that we were all doing...kinda mocking each other...but when they left it really hit me....I won't be seeing them for another at least 2 months....wow.....that's when I cried....and then I didn't really stop...as my parents and I were loading the van...I just continued to cry....and as I am writing this...I have tears in my eyes...I love my friends so much....we are so incredibly close....and my life is going to be so different without them.....then when my parents saw me crying...they cried too...even my mom....which is crazy....cause she NEVER cries....EVER.....she said I was just nervous and that's normal and not to worry and that I'm gonna do fine on my own.....this just made me cry more...cause I realize now how much I'm gonna miss my family as well.....ughhh...I hate all this crying!!!
Steve has called me like 10 times in the past few days ...and either I haven't picked up or when I pick up I tell him I'll call him back and then I never do.....everything has just been so crazy these past few days I haven't really been able to talk....I don't want him to think I'm already forgetting about him....because I'm not and never will.....
At least I finally have everything packed though....and I finished that prom/graduation album I had wanted to finish before I left....so at least I could breathe some sort of sigh of relief....
I'm gonna go finish some last minute things....e-mail me from now on at ab4151a@american.edu....but I'll still have Cutie12587 on AIM...this will prob be my last entry for a while.....I love you guys all so much!!!....I could never fully express in words how I feel about all of you...thank you for making my last night on Long Island so special....Hollerers forever!!!
*Note for anyone who has come across this journal and who is wondering if once I got to school I stopped writing in it...the answer is no I didn't stop writing...but from here on all of my entries are locked to friends only so unless you're on my friends list you won't be reading about my life*