stupid
everyone has somebody that they dated or whatever that still have tiny holds on eachother's hearts, because they actually cared deeply for eachother at one point.
i've never affected anyone like that, its like nobody takes me seriously.. sometimes i think im not pretty enough, or im too fat, or im not smart enough, or i'm just boring. i dont know. i cant see how anyone would be really into me for just me, but i really want to find that someone.
i need change
should i change myself to easily form the the mold of 'what guys want' or should i hold on to 'be yourself and people will attract to you"?
some people have it all
like the other day at work, alex pissed me off and he says " oh anna give me a hug!" and he goes on to tell me that he is working on how he hugs and so on.. then he gives me this halfway-hug .. so i say " and that's your version of trying to improve?" and he says " no that's just my version of how i hug anna."
i know that sounds really stupid, but there has been so many things that people just openly say about me being fat or they somehow imply something...like im different or something. i found two pctures on the computer at work of me, and they were labeled " fat 1" and "fat2".
im so jealous of other people sometimes... with their perfect bodies and boyfriends and smooth lives.
im sorry, im throwing myself a huge pity-party and its just a waste of time