Get Over Yourself, Sweetheart
Amy's parents have been out of town so we've been hanging out at her place a lot. this weekend I hung out with amy every day and shan spent the night w/ us one night and we hung out with the guys of course. they took Amy and me out to dinner and to the mall saturday night which was fun.
the other night, i was reading one of jay's poems (which are amazing by the way) and one of them was about an old man... he said the reason that he wrote the poem was because of something that happened the day before..."Yesterday i was walking to the pharmacy to pick up my mother's prescription and an old man, probably in his eighties walked past me all staggery, and at that time i noticed my reaction was to look the other way. As i was in the pharmacy i questioned why didnt I just Aknowledge his existence. It made me realize as people get older so does their right as a human-being in a sense. It made me realize that the next time i see an old person or less fortunate person walk past me, i will be sure to say hello." it inspired me to make an effort to be friendlier to elderly people... so the next day i was shopping with Amy and i stopped and held the door open for this older lady... probably in her late seventies... and i smiled as i held the door open for her... she gave me the meanest look ever... God dumb bitch. that shit pisses me off... i was just being friendly, excuse me.
the other day i went to the gro sto for a few minutes and i saw some people i knew working there so i smiled and said hey... and as I made my way to the check out line chris ran over to me and gave me the biggest hug and was like "Jo! i miss you!" even though he had customers in line... i really miss that kid. people like that just make my day. scott, chris and me need to hang out again really soon.
Amy, Heather and I have been really bad about going to school recently... basically because now amy has her own car. it's just so tempting to not go... the other day we went to bob evans... omg we walked through the ATM! haha "oohhh look at him!!!" this past week hanging out with her has been the best and i haven't laughed that much in forever... i really needed it. i love amy's car... it's so cute. it's a stick and she stalls it like all the time haha. we were going to go to school today... really, we were. but a bunch of drama happened last night at Amy's/Billy's and we all had hangovers and Heather got sick so we ended up not going... but I seriously can't miss ANY more... anyways, because of last night I have lost so much faith in guys. shame on me, for thinking you were different. I'm just so sick of being disappointed and let down. i also realized that drama doesn't end in high school, unfortunately. it only gets worse as you get older and relationships only become more complicated. it's depressing because i don't really have anything to look forward to right now.
Yes I heard all that you had to say
That's when it all fell apart
Might be hated but I can't pretend
I liked you better before
So long so long
Front foot leads the back one
Go on and it wont be too soon
I'm gone I'm gone
and on to the next one
So long and I wont be back soon
It's hateful to say
I see it this way
I don't even know who you are
But in my defense I'd do it again
I don't need to know who you are
So long so long
And on to the next one
Go on and it wont be too soon
You're gone You're gone
Are you waiting for something?
Go on cause I wont be back soon
Guster- So Long
Prom - well I'm definately not going with Billy anymore... fuck that. so I'm free for a date, guys! there's a couple of guy friends i could go with and if not, then lauren wants to be my date! haha either way, it'll be fun and i'm not even really looking forward to prom that much, just dressing up and the after-parties.
sping break- hell yeah! sasha (amy's friend) is coming to town and we're all supposed to go to the beach for a few days... i am definately planning on having a good time while i'm there... best part is, no one back here will ever hear about it.
I need to start eating healthy and working out everyday errhh a couple days a weeks is enough... ok screw eating healthy i can just work out...
the other day when we were at the mall we saw all these prostitots wearing miniskirst and tiny tops... and someone remarked that girls who dress like that are bringing it upon themselves to get sexually assaulted... ok maybe by dressing like that they're getting attention from guys... but i hardly think that they are bringing it upon themselves to be sexually assaulted... maybe that's just me. but that pissed me off that someone said that.
+ i got a job working at jason's deli and am totally siked to start, but Heather said that what i'm gonna be doing is really hard to learn, so i'm a little nervous. i'm working wed, thurs, fri, and sat so come eat and visit me! i'm excited that i'll finally have some spending money.
+ moving is going ok, but i'm really behind in moving all my stuff... my brother and I are going to move in the new house before the rest of my family for a few weeks so the freedom should be awesome.
- school isn't going well at all. i just never feel like going anymore... i feel like i've outgrown highschool i'm sooo sick of it. and i've stopped caring about it.
- this weekend i realized that I'm growing/have grown apart from people that used to be so important in my life, and that's sad.
+ I've been catching up with cait lately
- i think heather gave me whatever she's been sick with last night
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