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- think of me as crazy... but it kind of sounds liek the same person... i really think that the same person is making all the anonymous comments in my journal.... it sounds like the same person just agreeing with themselves... call me crazy....
-so tonight wasn't a total loss... i went to the mall and saw mike, and we walked around for a while and that was ok, but then we went into this store called Nirvana and the guy that works there knows mike and started up conversation... and he also wanted me to call him later so he could come over and get drunk.. whatever... i really don't like that kid... he's annoying, and he thinks he's hot shit... kind of reminds me of mike....
- but yeah, so on the way to the mall karma caught up to me i guess... and i got into an accident... yep, this kid that got his liscence about 2 weeks ago ran right into the side of me when he was switching lanes... and he didn't even have his blinker on.. he swore he looked though, and couldn't see me... of course he couldn't see me, he was in this big truck, and he didn't have the side view mirrors possitioned to where he could see little cars, like mine... and mine isn't even that little... so lets just say that now i have a smashed in driver side door, my side view mirror is somewhere on Markland Ave., and i need a front end alinement really bad.... but besides that everything on the car is pretty much ok... i have a hurt arm and shoulder, but it should be better in a few days, my mom said that she's going to take me to the chiropractor when i get to florida... stupid teenage drivers... if you can't drive a truck properly, don't drive it at all... and then to make it worse on his part, he kept going, and drove 2 blocks before stopping.. what a dumbass! oh well, his loss, his ticket, and his insurence company paying for it all!
- so then later after all of that happened... Ty came over to see if i was ok... yeah... i'm fine... we went for my usual walk around the apartments and then he came in for a while... we didn't really do anything besides talk, but it was nice... i'm gonna miss him while i'm in florida... i'm gonna miss all the other people i go doing things with too, like randi, fefe, and the guard girls... but most of all, i'll miss Ty... i guess because i'm not worried that he'll judge me... i know i get judged alot in my journal, but he knows that whether he judges me or not i won't change who i am... and thats nice... because for some reason everyone that judges me in my journal, or judged me when i lived in florida, expects me to change... just becasue they don't like the way i act, or talk, or how much i complain, or how easily i get angry... whatever... it shouldn't matter... because i'm not going to change for them... and i don't see a problem with me that i need to fix... i know i have flaws... and i know i'm not perfect.. but i'm not going to change me becasue everyone else wants me to... you know? concidering the fact that perfection is vastly over rated anyways...... and i know all of you who are commenting in my journal probably have nothing better to do with your summer, but why do something that isn't going to change anything? i mean, i'm not going to change... not for you guys... i'll appologize, and ask you to put it behind you, but i'm not going to change, and i'm not going to take back what i did... because even if i did take back what i did, i can't garauntee that i'm not going to do it again.. and if i can'tr promise you that, then i'm not going to do it....
-abbie
-so tonight wasn't a total loss... i went to the mall and saw mike, and we walked around for a while and that was ok, but then we went into this store called Nirvana and the guy that works there knows mike and started up conversation... and he also wanted me to call him later so he could come over and get drunk.. whatever... i really don't like that kid... he's annoying, and he thinks he's hot shit... kind of reminds me of mike....
- but yeah, so on the way to the mall karma caught up to me i guess... and i got into an accident... yep, this kid that got his liscence about 2 weeks ago ran right into the side of me when he was switching lanes... and he didn't even have his blinker on.. he swore he looked though, and couldn't see me... of course he couldn't see me, he was in this big truck, and he didn't have the side view mirrors possitioned to where he could see little cars, like mine... and mine isn't even that little... so lets just say that now i have a smashed in driver side door, my side view mirror is somewhere on Markland Ave., and i need a front end alinement really bad.... but besides that everything on the car is pretty much ok... i have a hurt arm and shoulder, but it should be better in a few days, my mom said that she's going to take me to the chiropractor when i get to florida... stupid teenage drivers... if you can't drive a truck properly, don't drive it at all... and then to make it worse on his part, he kept going, and drove 2 blocks before stopping.. what a dumbass! oh well, his loss, his ticket, and his insurence company paying for it all!
- so then later after all of that happened... Ty came over to see if i was ok... yeah... i'm fine... we went for my usual walk around the apartments and then he came in for a while... we didn't really do anything besides talk, but it was nice... i'm gonna miss him while i'm in florida... i'm gonna miss all the other people i go doing things with too, like randi, fefe, and the guard girls... but most of all, i'll miss Ty... i guess because i'm not worried that he'll judge me... i know i get judged alot in my journal, but he knows that whether he judges me or not i won't change who i am... and thats nice... because for some reason everyone that judges me in my journal, or judged me when i lived in florida, expects me to change... just becasue they don't like the way i act, or talk, or how much i complain, or how easily i get angry... whatever... it shouldn't matter... because i'm not going to change for them... and i don't see a problem with me that i need to fix... i know i have flaws... and i know i'm not perfect.. but i'm not going to change me becasue everyone else wants me to... you know? concidering the fact that perfection is vastly over rated anyways...... and i know all of you who are commenting in my journal probably have nothing better to do with your summer, but why do something that isn't going to change anything? i mean, i'm not going to change... not for you guys... i'll appologize, and ask you to put it behind you, but i'm not going to change, and i'm not going to take back what i did... because even if i did take back what i did, i can't garauntee that i'm not going to do it again.. and if i can'tr promise you that, then i'm not going to do it....
-abbie