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IVE BEEN THINKING....ABOUT ME AND MY FRIENDS....I DONT SEE WHY THEY CONSIDER ME THEIR FRIEND EVEN THOUGH I HAVENT DONE SHIT FOR THEM...IM S0O0O LUCKY TO BE THEIR FRIEND.THEY ARE THE BEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD..IM JUST CONFUSED...I DONT SEE WHY THEY DONT "HATE" ME...IM A TERRIBLE PERSON THAT ONLY CARES ABOUT HER SELF...IM NOT A GOOD AS A FRIEND AS JULIE OR JESSICA..AND ESPECIALLY FELICIA...I JUST FEEL REAL BAD WHEN I READ JULIES LJ AND JESSICAS LJ AND IT SAYS HOW GOOD OF FRIENDS THEY ARE..IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE SHIT..BUT I MEAN I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT..WHICH SUCKS, IF ONLY I CAN GO BACK AND CHANGE EVERYTHING IVE DONE, THEN MAYBE THINGS WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER. EVERYONE IS GOING THROUGH SOME KIND OF DRAMA AND IT SUCKS, BECUZ I NEVER HELP THE SITUATION..NEVER..IT SUCKS...AND IF I DID CHANGE NOTHING WOULD BE THE SAME...SO I MEAN... WHATS THE POINT...FOR NOW ON IMA PUT EVERYTHING I FEEL ON THIS THING..MAYBE I CAN GET SOME OF MY DEPRESSION OUT