God, I love him.

[hotdamnfoo]

So many things, so little time....
So why are you the only thing on my mind???

I love him so much,
I can't believe he doesn't believe me...
How couldn't he?
I just don't see how he can be every part of me and completely discard my 'i love yous' as completely invisible.
It's almost comical, but completely tragic at the same time.

Omri if you read this I really do love you and I never want to leave you.

I need him to dance with me and sing me to sleep.
Tonight isn't that night.
But someday, he'll be there. :]
And I look forward to it always.

I feel stupid for pushing him away so badly at times,
And I have no idea why I do.
I love him with everything in me, but a reflex inside of me is telling me not to let him get in.
Not to let him explore my worst fears.
Not to let him get a hold of my heart.

But my heart is already screaming back,
That's it's been captured,
And it's not coming back,
Without a scratch, bump, bruise, or scar.

I love him.
And if he ever decides he doesn't love me.
I still want him to keep my heart.

Because I don't want to take it back,
Knowing that all it will do is bleed.