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I'm pretty much going to type whatever comes to my mind.
My full name is Molly Doreen Noonan. I like how my name is very uncommon. I just got off the phone with my boyfriend, we talked for a little over an hour & I absolutely love talking to him. I never have anything to talk about so I tell him anything & everything that pops into my head. I talk about the most random things. I cant stay on topic b/c I always find something better to talk about. I get embarrassed really easily. I hate it. My face turns beat red anytime I feel the least bit uncomfortable. Most of the time, my face just turns red for no reason. Its like it has a mind of its own. I love being around people but I love to lay around and think about things just as much. I can be the biggest bitch. If you piss me off, you'll know it. I hate being pissed off, it takes so much energy out of me to get that worked up. I'm annoyed by the littlest things. When people talk about me and think I don't know is probably one of the things I hate most. I'm not stupid, I hear things and people talk a lot. I love my laughs, all 700 of them! I think I come up with a new laugh everyday. I hate when people look at me or better yet stare at me. It makes me really uncomfortable & I feel like they can see all of my flaws. I think I love food more than anything. Its always there for me and always makes me feel better.(as stupid as that sounds) There's not many points during the day when I'm not eating, unless I'm really busy or caught up in something. I love fudge bars. Chicken Noodle Soup is my favorite food. I eat it at least once a day. I have to cook it with a certain pan, eat it with my special bowl and spoon. I get upset if other people use them. I'm an extremely weird eater. I'm obsessed with Raisinettes and Gardettos. If I wasn't in cheerleading I would probably be about 300 pounds. I absolutely love cheerleading, it takes over my life and I don't mind. No matter what anyone says, CHEERLEADING IS A FUCKING SPORT. I watch my cheer competition tapes all the time. I memorized every other schools cheer, round 1 and 2.(I have like 4 or 5 tapes too) I'm so glad I don't go to western anymore. I HATE it! Their cheerleading has gone to shit and I would be so embarrassed to be on their teams, no offense. I don't like the situations I put myself into with guys. I have many guy friends and just about all of them flirt with me. I know for a fact my boyfriends witnessed it more than once & it makes me feel really bad b/c I hate to see his girl friends purposely do it in front of me to make me jealous. What the fuck is that. I hate fake people. I'm hyper all the time and I'm always laughing but when I'm quiet that doesn't necessarily mean I'm in a bad mood, it just means I'm not up for socializing. I love to dance like a slut, it makes me REALLY happy. The only part of my body I like is my butt. Im pretty much disgusted with myself when I look in the mirror, though I'm always looking in the mirror but I don't care enough to do anything about it. I'm addicted to tanning and have got sun poisoning twice. I'm deathly afraid of getting close to guys, caring that much about someone & giving them the chance to hurt me. I don't ever want to be cheated on again and I hate that someone would do that to me. I don't think ill ever get rid of that fear. I only let certain people in. I'm not one to make the first move. I'm not a slut and I'm only prude with certain people, I don't know why that is. I'm so happy with Tim. He's the only boy I've ever been this wrapped up in. I've never cared this much for someone & I love it. I hate when girls think they have to be near their boyfriends every single second. I don't feel the need to be next to Tim at all times. That's probably why you barely ever see us together in school. People don't understand why I'm not always by him, I don't need that much security. But I love being with him & I love how he makes me feel. This is the best relationship I've ever been in and I hope it lasts. I couldn't ask for better friends than the ones I have there always there and I love them all so much. I couldn't survive w/o them.
If any of you actually read this, let me know.
p.s. did you know I love you?