*~Cranky~*
I am so damn cranky right now. I told Wayne to go out cuz he was getting on my nerves. I think that he prolly went to Marcus's but I don't know for sure. I am gunna get ready to write Krystal a letter anyways. She said that she never got the one that I sent her like 2 weeks ago. That aggravates me cuz that had a lot of importnant info in it.
So anyways, the scoop on me and Wayne is this: he told me that if I don't stop accusing him of doing things that he 'didn't' do then he is going to have to just be my friend. I don't know if he is for real or not but I don't know how I feel about that. Yesterday he made me make my descision about what I wanted to do. If I wanted to be with him and be happy or if I just wanted to be friends. He told me that he loves me and he always will and he will always help me as much as he can, and he doesn't want to be without me but he can't go on fighting like this. I can't either. So I told him that I would do my best to be ok and not be like that to him anymore. It is just hard after everything that has happend. Sumtimes, I wonder if we would be better off as friends? I do love him so very much though. Why does love have to be so complicated? Today because of all this I havn't even felt like getting off the couch. I guess it really depresses me also cuz I'm pregnant. I havn't told any of my family or many of my friends. Only Krystal and Nicole know- well and Wayne too of course.
I wathed the move 'Riding in Cars w/ Boys' today. That movie soo reminds me of my life.
I hung out w/ Nicole on Thursday when I called into work sick. It was nice to talk to her about things. We have so much in common. I felt better after talking to her.
So anyways, the scoop on me and Wayne is this: he told me that if I don't stop accusing him of doing things that he 'didn't' do then he is going to have to just be my friend. I don't know if he is for real or not but I don't know how I feel about that. Yesterday he made me make my descision about what I wanted to do. If I wanted to be with him and be happy or if I just wanted to be friends. He told me that he loves me and he always will and he will always help me as much as he can, and he doesn't want to be without me but he can't go on fighting like this. I can't either. So I told him that I would do my best to be ok and not be like that to him anymore. It is just hard after everything that has happend. Sumtimes, I wonder if we would be better off as friends? I do love him so very much though. Why does love have to be so complicated? Today because of all this I havn't even felt like getting off the couch. I guess it really depresses me also cuz I'm pregnant. I havn't told any of my family or many of my friends. Only Krystal and Nicole know- well and Wayne too of course.
I wathed the move 'Riding in Cars w/ Boys' today. That movie soo reminds me of my life.
I hung out w/ Nicole on Thursday when I called into work sick. It was nice to talk to her about things. We have so much in common. I felt better after talking to her.