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I'm kinda sad today. Last night was weird. I got kinda drunk and Wayne says that I was acting all weird torwards him. I didn't feel like that until I went to get into bed. I got into bed and then I fell asleep and then I woke up and I was crying- like whiny crying. I keep having this horrible dream like feeling that he is going to leave me. I just can't get rid of that feeling. I talked to him about it and he keeps on reassuring me that he's not leaving but I'm still upset. I just talked to him on the phone about it a little and he said that we can talk more about it when I get home from work. He says that last night I was giving him an attitude and I was upsetting him. I honestly don't even remember being like that. I told him that I was upset because I feel like I have been trying so hard to be nice to him and make things work and he still feels like he is the only one who is trying. Yesterday Lee-Ann told me that she heard that the reason that he got kicked out of Marcus's house was because he got caught doing something with Alice. I talked to Sarah about it and she said that she didn't hear anything like that at all. She said that she talked to Marcus about it too and its not true because they definitely would have heard something about it. It still upsets me though- even to think about it upsets me. I know that Lee-Ann is a liar but still. It still hurts me. She told me that on Sunday night Wayne was trying to talk to her in his new lil red car- I was like Lee-Ann you are such a liar!!! His car is not even working. So I caught her in a lie. It so pissed me off. She told me that she has a new boyfriend named George and that she wants nothing to do with Wayne but she still tried to add him to her friend list on instant messanger yesterday. All she does is lie and when I see her I'm going to kick her face in. She is making me weak in my relationship. Lately I have just been thinking about everything. All the lies and whatever. I don't know what to do. I just wish that I knew what I was supposed to do. It would make things so much easier. Well anyways, I'm supposed to hang out with Nicole this weekend. That should be fun. I talked to Krystal and she wants to hang out with us too. We'll see if that actually happens. Krystal has been such a little jerk lately. She has such an attitude. Mike ended up getting arrested on Saturday night because of what he did to me. I don't really wanna get into it but he was punching me right in front of the cop and he didn't even care. That lady from the police station never called me about the restraining order or anything. We spent Easter at my moms house. It was nice until Justin started being really bad. I was eating a piece of strawberry shortcake and then he came over and threw a dead ladybug into my plate. It was so nasty! I got so mad that I made him get right up and put his coat on and I brought him home. I was pissed off. I talked to Julie last night. She moved back in with Aunty Kathy. She said that it was becuase the bathtub was leaking into Ryan's room but I think it was for other reasons. I guess that Luke moved in with his new girlfriend. Julie has a new man he is in the service too-- but it has to be a secret though since she is still married to someone in the military and she can't date anyone for a year or she wont be able to her her alimony money from her husband and all that. Everything with Julie always has to be so complicated. Well anyways, me and Wayne are going to try to move into this beautiful condo down the street from my moms house. I absolutely LOVE it. I have to live there. So hopefully that will happen sometime soon. Well im gunna go for now. Bye!