Invisible...
I feel so lost. No one can see me. No matter how hare I scream. No matter how hard I pound the walls. My presense still goes unoticed even by the ones that I want most to see me. I can stand right in front of them and beg and plead and they will still look right through my transparent shadow.
I want, I seek, I need, I try.
I hurt, I bleed, I scream, I cry.
My love swallows me whole, and smothers every other emotion. The one thing that once kept me alive, is now deeply painfully killing me slowly. I can't feel anything else. I can't think of anything else but this knife in my heart as my eyes close while I am slowly bleeding to death.
I care, I feel, I see, I choose.
I fear, I run, I flee, I loose.
My want is to great, and my world is too small. I cannot be seen for what I really am. All that I want is to reach out to the one that I love without being cloaked in the darkness that surroundes me. The tears stream down like raindrops on broken glass, reflection blurred.
I loathe, I hate, I think, I call.
I love, I reach, I miss.....I fall.....