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So today I saw Because I Said So with some friends. It just dawned on me that these people don't even really know me. I seem to talk a lot once you get to know me, but I never actually tell anyone what I really feel. The only person I could ever tell anything remotely similar to my true thoughts was Abby, and now we've grown apart since she moved away. I have some really good online friends, but they can't always be there for me. I just have this sudden feeling of loneliness. Can I really not find a friend that will love me unconditionaly despite all the things wrong with me and actually care about me?
Hm. Guess not. I still wonder why I care for so many people in the above way, and go as far as telling them the whole "friends forever" thing. It seems as though I'm the only one that actually means it, while they're the ones telling me how much they love me just days before deciding I'm no one to them.