Life, don't talk to me about life
The simple reality is...things are better than they have been in a long while. The biggest reason for that is that I left things alone and let them happen. What's commonly not known is that I could have been doing better a long time ago, I just wouldn't let that occur.
A lot of people these day have the wrong attitude about what things looking better really looks like. I have my own place, 2 cars, gaining more responsibility at work (not sure that's better now that I think about it), have Scout (my German Shepherd Dog), I've cleared my head enough to understand what I need to fix and change, when pay day hits I still have money in my account, my debt is going down and my credit score is going up. For the 99% of us, that's doing well.
The marriage is holding steady at the moment. Still no real thanks to him, but as long as the reason I got together with him still matters he has time to get his act together. I certainly don't have time to worry about his when I have my own to continue working on.
What I allowed to go wrong is far simpler than I once thought. The day I stopped doing "what would I do" and started doing "what would others want me to do" is when everything went south. I think I used to get caught up in the details when posting, but I don't think that's necessary. The overview should suffice.
Things are still a little alien, yet familiar with the changes I'm working on. It didn't happen over night to get to where I am now, it's not realistic to expect any instant turn around either.
The way I know this is working? People I know tell me that I'm smiling more (not always a good thing for those around me when I decide I'm going to be a prankster) and the excitement that they are used to seeing about ANYTHING relating to Star Wars is back in full effect for the new movie.
I've tried a couple other blogs and I just don't have the .... desire to keep using them. So, I'm just going to pay for a paid account again and get rid of these damn ads.
Hotal
A lot of people these day have the wrong attitude about what things looking better really looks like. I have my own place, 2 cars, gaining more responsibility at work (not sure that's better now that I think about it), have Scout (my German Shepherd Dog), I've cleared my head enough to understand what I need to fix and change, when pay day hits I still have money in my account, my debt is going down and my credit score is going up. For the 99% of us, that's doing well.
The marriage is holding steady at the moment. Still no real thanks to him, but as long as the reason I got together with him still matters he has time to get his act together. I certainly don't have time to worry about his when I have my own to continue working on.
What I allowed to go wrong is far simpler than I once thought. The day I stopped doing "what would I do" and started doing "what would others want me to do" is when everything went south. I think I used to get caught up in the details when posting, but I don't think that's necessary. The overview should suffice.
Things are still a little alien, yet familiar with the changes I'm working on. It didn't happen over night to get to where I am now, it's not realistic to expect any instant turn around either.
The way I know this is working? People I know tell me that I'm smiling more (not always a good thing for those around me when I decide I'm going to be a prankster) and the excitement that they are used to seeing about ANYTHING relating to Star Wars is back in full effect for the new movie.
I've tried a couple other blogs and I just don't have the .... desire to keep using them. So, I'm just going to pay for a paid account again and get rid of these damn ads.
Hotal