WHAT THE FUCK
and then my head explodes in disbelief.
i dont even know if i care anymore. im so detached-i dont even know what i felt exactly. but thats that. done. im sorry but you cannot have your cake and eat it too. have fun with your boring life. why stop now?
but really. im not an idiot. im not afraid to come to terms with how i feel/the emotions that are felt. i almost wish they weren't mutual. at least that would make more sense. maybe we got carried away but this shit happens for a reason. in a time of unrelentless, constant communication, i think its important to take notice when an ACTUAL, person to person, real life connection is established and hold on to dear life. because really? whats the point of all this nonsense. to wake up at 8, work till 5 and go to bed just to do it all again? its insane. but hey i guess being moderately borderline happy is appealing to the empty husks we call people these days. why feel?
i guess thats the one thing i can be thankful for. i havent felt anything this much in a long time. so im still human. i wasnt sure after the past 3 or so years.
anyways. now what? i feel like an empty ice cream tub, all scooped out and put back in the freezer for someone else to find. woohoo! life!
i just hope i can keep my shit together because everything else is falling apart around me.
the one that got away: 2
me: 0
i dont even know if i care anymore. im so detached-i dont even know what i felt exactly. but thats that. done. im sorry but you cannot have your cake and eat it too. have fun with your boring life. why stop now?
but really. im not an idiot. im not afraid to come to terms with how i feel/the emotions that are felt. i almost wish they weren't mutual. at least that would make more sense. maybe we got carried away but this shit happens for a reason. in a time of unrelentless, constant communication, i think its important to take notice when an ACTUAL, person to person, real life connection is established and hold on to dear life. because really? whats the point of all this nonsense. to wake up at 8, work till 5 and go to bed just to do it all again? its insane. but hey i guess being moderately borderline happy is appealing to the empty husks we call people these days. why feel?
i guess thats the one thing i can be thankful for. i havent felt anything this much in a long time. so im still human. i wasnt sure after the past 3 or so years.
anyways. now what? i feel like an empty ice cream tub, all scooped out and put back in the freezer for someone else to find. woohoo! life!
i just hope i can keep my shit together because everything else is falling apart around me.
the one that got away: 2
me: 0