(no subject)
I feel like a failure.
and I feel like people have failed me.
my family, my love, and my one friend give me purpose.
i feel a little betrayed by everything else.
Honestly, i thought i had totally conquered some of my past inner stuff...
i'm afraid that maybe now it's all back, and...i don't want to revert with all of it again. i don't even want to deal with it. i want to think that i'm not conflicted with it...but...
too much points to it.
especially lately.
it has no reason to be present...
so why on earth is it????
what.the.fuck.
i don't want to need help again.
and I feel like people have failed me.
my family, my love, and my one friend give me purpose.
i feel a little betrayed by everything else.
Honestly, i thought i had totally conquered some of my past inner stuff...
i'm afraid that maybe now it's all back, and...i don't want to revert with all of it again. i don't even want to deal with it. i want to think that i'm not conflicted with it...but...
too much points to it.
especially lately.
it has no reason to be present...
so why on earth is it????
what.the.fuck.
i don't want to need help again.