j'y suis, et j'y reste
today, my first day back after an enjoyable and relaxing spring break, has been good. i'm missing john a whole, whole lot, and even though last week was also spent without him during the day, he seems to be nearer when i'm unpacking his boxes and putting away his underwear.
my one semi-exciting event of the day was finding skilos, a big furry white and brown runaway dog, and getting him back to his owner. i liked him. he peed on everything in the backyard, and he licked my hands a lot. i had fun telling him to sit, because he's way better at it than tippy.
i really have been feeling good today, neither high nor low, but when i've stopped to dwell it's been on bryan and last weekend, and really it's not a very big deal, it's going to be fine, but this feeling of feeling sorry is similar enough (but so much less) to what i felt last year at this time that i've been thinking about then. it hasn't made me sad, really, it's just made me think about it, and me then, how it affected me and all of that. it was a rough time for everyone, you know. things are different now, so different, and especially for us.
we have a date, june 30, at the fontenot grand mansion in spring. thinking about john, thinking about our lives, i can't even tell you. it's exciting and calming at once, it makes me smile and my shoulders relax and fall. we can hardly kiss for smiling.
my one semi-exciting event of the day was finding skilos, a big furry white and brown runaway dog, and getting him back to his owner. i liked him. he peed on everything in the backyard, and he licked my hands a lot. i had fun telling him to sit, because he's way better at it than tippy.
i really have been feeling good today, neither high nor low, but when i've stopped to dwell it's been on bryan and last weekend, and really it's not a very big deal, it's going to be fine, but this feeling of feeling sorry is similar enough (but so much less) to what i felt last year at this time that i've been thinking about then. it hasn't made me sad, really, it's just made me think about it, and me then, how it affected me and all of that. it was a rough time for everyone, you know. things are different now, so different, and especially for us.
we have a date, june 30, at the fontenot grand mansion in spring. thinking about john, thinking about our lives, i can't even tell you. it's exciting and calming at once, it makes me smile and my shoulders relax and fall. we can hardly kiss for smiling.