Complete garbage
So i was told last night but the one person whom i could love for the rest of my life, that he is very interested in his best friends little sister and plans on dating her in the very near future. according to him, he thought "i should know about it". WHYS THAT? to rub it in my face that no matter how hard i try and no matter how much i do for you that it wont matter cuz you'll never want me? what kind of shit is that? now i get a message from this person "im sorry for being a jerk lately" YEA IM SORRY TOO because i cried for hours last night, i cried during every class today, i cried when i got home, just thinking about you makes me want to vomit. nothing you can say can make this better, or easier. nothing. everyone just says "im sorry jen" "dont worry about it jen" "dont be sad jen" THAT DOES NOT HELP if you want to help, let me be angry, listen to what im REALLY upset about. im not sad because he might be dating someone else, im PISSED at the fact that this always happens to me. no matter how much i say im gonna change, no matter who its with, it always happens. it just so happens that this happened with the worst possible person. why him? why cant i have the one thing i want. but it doesnt matter, cuz im telling you right now, from this point forward im not going to let him use me. hes not going to date whomever he wants yet call me up when he needs a ride, or when he needs homework, NOT ANYMORE. bull fucking shit. im good enough to talk to on weekends right...and maybe on the phone sometimes after school but IN school, silence. we dont know each other right? we didnt date for 3 years right??? we havent known each other for OVER 6 YEARS?!!!! we didnt spend almost every day this summer together in my car right?? of course not..FUCK YOU