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hey im cristina =)
so i have a little bit of a situation and i was wondering if someone could help me out.
my best friend is danielle. she's the type of person that keeps things very secretive even though we've been closer than sisters for atleast four years now. in july one night we started hooking up i dont really know how it happened it just did. she would always say that she wasnt bi or a lesbian but she wouldnt explain why she'd do stuff with me so i went with it thinking that she liked me. at that point i was still really into other guys and stuff. up until january i didnt have feelings for her i just thought of it as friends with benefits. then i started to like her alot. id stay up all night and cry and i started to write her notes explain how i felt. she would read them and then just throw them away and wouldnt really say anything about it and if i talked to her more about it she would just say "oh no you dont like" or something along those lines. so in february i asked her out numerous times and she kept saying no. so finally i threatened her and i told her if we couldnt be together then we couldnt be friends because it was too painful for me. so she finally said yes. noone besides me knows that shes bi though. we keep breaking up because i know she doesnt like me that way. but somehow i need to have that feeling that we are together like ill fall apart if we arent. i mean we still hook up and stuff but i feel like its just not enough. i dont know what to do i feel so stuck. somebody please help me!!
so i have a little bit of a situation and i was wondering if someone could help me out.
my best friend is danielle. she's the type of person that keeps things very secretive even though we've been closer than sisters for atleast four years now. in july one night we started hooking up i dont really know how it happened it just did. she would always say that she wasnt bi or a lesbian but she wouldnt explain why she'd do stuff with me so i went with it thinking that she liked me. at that point i was still really into other guys and stuff. up until january i didnt have feelings for her i just thought of it as friends with benefits. then i started to like her alot. id stay up all night and cry and i started to write her notes explain how i felt. she would read them and then just throw them away and wouldnt really say anything about it and if i talked to her more about it she would just say "oh no you dont like" or something along those lines. so in february i asked her out numerous times and she kept saying no. so finally i threatened her and i told her if we couldnt be together then we couldnt be friends because it was too painful for me. so she finally said yes. noone besides me knows that shes bi though. we keep breaking up because i know she doesnt like me that way. but somehow i need to have that feeling that we are together like ill fall apart if we arent. i mean we still hook up and stuff but i feel like its just not enough. i dont know what to do i feel so stuck. somebody please help me!!