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lately life sucks
i have a ukrainian nickel somewhere in my digestive tract
i was single by the end of valentines day
and i havent really been able to drink for about over a month
although i came to terms with some problems that i have been facing
something that i think will help me in relationships to come
i dont like dating around
despite what some people may think due to my apparrent reputation
an really i want is to find love again
but i realized something that i think its pretty easy too look at someone once you knwo them an as long as your being honest with yourself to ask if you could see yourself with them in years to come
instead of lying to yourself an constantly weighing the pros and cons of the relationship your in
which ive realized is somehting i do quite often
the only trick is to hold to it
for lent i gave up women
an sex
sorta like a 40 days an 40 nights thing
to try an clear my head and force myself to think about whats really important
i can only hope it works