im finaly loosing it
the past few days ive been driving myself insane
ive been doing niothing but fucking up lately
i feel like the biggest fuck upin the world
im jsut so ioverhwelmed with shit to do that i cant think strait
Saturday- i went to work for my normal shift (1230-7) i usualy show up a bit early so i got there at about 10
only to be reminded that i was supposed to be working at 3:30 to midnihgt due to a shift trade that i remember making i had jsut forgot
Sunday- had that same shift trade but this time i remmembered, so i ahd to work the bag room 3:30-7 then do lav's from 7-midnight, unfortunatly it was my first time doing lavs on my own an the whole time i thought i was emptying the planes of the waste, i was not since i was no pressing a certain lever, so about 4 planes into this I found out and had to do them all over again
monday- some one stole a book that i needed for school at work and i almost got in a car accident on the way home because some old man tried to cut me off without signaling or even looking, so i was literaly centimeters from going into the wall crashing and dying, this amde me upset and i could not sleep till probably about 4 in the morning
Tuesday-(today) i had to wake up at 8:00 am to go to court for my summons, luckily it got dismissed, but i did feel horibly bad for the girl infront of me who wasnt so lucky, same exact case but she got fined 100$ an the fine is only usualy 20$, from there i went to school, i was quite a bit early so i hung out an talked to some people, met some people which wasnt so bad an there was this one girl who was kinda cute. got out of school went home got changed an went strait to work, only to find out that i wasnt working today, an went in for nothing, 4 hours wasted.
Things on my mind-
1)does that girl from school today think im cute?
2)do i really want to bother for another relationship right now? or should i just take a break as planned?
3)my trip to houston
4)what were gonna do
5)work
6) me fucking up at work
7)this essay im about to start
8) should i stay at work or start going to school full time?
9)the vivarium i plan on getting
10)going to get a new ball for my earing to replace one that i lost on saturday
11)trying to see my friends
12)trying to find friends who have friends or family in houston
13)the big steak im gonna have in houston
14)trying to findout wherre the place is exactly in houston where the steak is
15)ana boe ditching me
16)a slight on comming head ache
17)am i getting sick?
19)what if i dont havea good time?
20)getting laid may do me a world of good
21)would that make me a whore?
(okay the last 2 just popped in my head now)
but still i swear to god friday cant come soon enough for me right now
i need a beer
ive been doing niothing but fucking up lately
i feel like the biggest fuck upin the world
im jsut so ioverhwelmed with shit to do that i cant think strait
Saturday- i went to work for my normal shift (1230-7) i usualy show up a bit early so i got there at about 10
only to be reminded that i was supposed to be working at 3:30 to midnihgt due to a shift trade that i remember making i had jsut forgot
Sunday- had that same shift trade but this time i remmembered, so i ahd to work the bag room 3:30-7 then do lav's from 7-midnight, unfortunatly it was my first time doing lavs on my own an the whole time i thought i was emptying the planes of the waste, i was not since i was no pressing a certain lever, so about 4 planes into this I found out and had to do them all over again
monday- some one stole a book that i needed for school at work and i almost got in a car accident on the way home because some old man tried to cut me off without signaling or even looking, so i was literaly centimeters from going into the wall crashing and dying, this amde me upset and i could not sleep till probably about 4 in the morning
Tuesday-(today) i had to wake up at 8:00 am to go to court for my summons, luckily it got dismissed, but i did feel horibly bad for the girl infront of me who wasnt so lucky, same exact case but she got fined 100$ an the fine is only usualy 20$, from there i went to school, i was quite a bit early so i hung out an talked to some people, met some people which wasnt so bad an there was this one girl who was kinda cute. got out of school went home got changed an went strait to work, only to find out that i wasnt working today, an went in for nothing, 4 hours wasted.
Things on my mind-
1)does that girl from school today think im cute?
2)do i really want to bother for another relationship right now? or should i just take a break as planned?
3)my trip to houston
4)what were gonna do
5)work
6) me fucking up at work
7)this essay im about to start
8) should i stay at work or start going to school full time?
9)the vivarium i plan on getting
10)going to get a new ball for my earing to replace one that i lost on saturday
11)trying to see my friends
12)trying to find friends who have friends or family in houston
13)the big steak im gonna have in houston
14)trying to findout wherre the place is exactly in houston where the steak is
15)ana boe ditching me
16)a slight on comming head ache
17)am i getting sick?
19)what if i dont havea good time?
20)getting laid may do me a world of good
21)would that make me a whore?
(okay the last 2 just popped in my head now)
but still i swear to god friday cant come soon enough for me right now
i need a beer