A Re-Evaluation of life and random things that are going through my mind
I am going to have to reevaluate my life, but that change I talked about doing before spring break, well its kinda done but its gonna be a little while before its completely changed. But ya I have to find some time to relax but now I've got this damn senior speech and all these things running through my head.
On a different note school has never been easier, class wise :) made honor role last trimester yahoo!!!
The thing that I heard today "Ya I actually had to be home by 10:30 but ohwell" and "I couldn't deal with a bed that tall, cause you can't climb up on it and the only way to get on it is up and over"
I know stupid but I thought they were funny at the time. Good movie by the way Star Ship Troopers, and Ninja Turtles.
Oddly enough and good thing to watch for fun or for laughs Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the episode thats like a musical.
I still feel like a dumbass everytime I do cheerleading because of the way I was brought up I geuss, I don't know if it's the fact I don't know how to say the words or that I am made to feel silly saying them. Working on that but ya cheerleading still sweet and I recon of everything from they competition thing gets put together its gonna blow people away, of course ya gotta have everyone together for a practice which doesn't happen. I still feel as week as a 2yr old girl cause we can't throw higher than the girls really, but ah we can't all be diesel.
I don't really have much else to say I"m gonna try and work on my speech so that in the morning I can just sit on my ass, hell I may even go to church and see if that helps the way I feeling, I still feel ackwordly not 100%.
Things to do, get diesel, party hard, buy a house, get a family, live out my days in happiness with a home in the country and back here in VA Beach so I can remember what times were like.
Bad memories that owned me this weekend because they appeared in my dreams, the only day I ever said I love you to my grandfather on my moms side, which happens to be at a time when cancer had taken him so far, all he could say back was I love you too as he sat in chair at my aunt's house, then taking a plane home alone for the first time ever, and only getting to VA. Beach to find out that he had died and that we were taking the next plane back for his funeral.
The day I found out that my other grandfather had cancer and the fact that he died the night of a day where he had felt so good he was talking about the next time we would go fishing together. I've only gone fishing once since then, it was with his brother, I never will again unless it be with my own son/daughter, or his brother.
The day my dog died, I can't say much about this without going nuts, but for anyone who ever has to put down a pet for being in a vegetative state, I feel for you and when I think about all of these things I don't see how life goes on but its does and thats what hurts the most.
Well all I can think of right now is this song so I'll leave with that
God Bless the Broken Road that brought me straight to you....
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.
On a different note school has never been easier, class wise :) made honor role last trimester yahoo!!!
The thing that I heard today "Ya I actually had to be home by 10:30 but ohwell" and "I couldn't deal with a bed that tall, cause you can't climb up on it and the only way to get on it is up and over"
I know stupid but I thought they were funny at the time. Good movie by the way Star Ship Troopers, and Ninja Turtles.
Oddly enough and good thing to watch for fun or for laughs Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the episode thats like a musical.
I still feel like a dumbass everytime I do cheerleading because of the way I was brought up I geuss, I don't know if it's the fact I don't know how to say the words or that I am made to feel silly saying them. Working on that but ya cheerleading still sweet and I recon of everything from they competition thing gets put together its gonna blow people away, of course ya gotta have everyone together for a practice which doesn't happen. I still feel as week as a 2yr old girl cause we can't throw higher than the girls really, but ah we can't all be diesel.
I don't really have much else to say I"m gonna try and work on my speech so that in the morning I can just sit on my ass, hell I may even go to church and see if that helps the way I feeling, I still feel ackwordly not 100%.
Things to do, get diesel, party hard, buy a house, get a family, live out my days in happiness with a home in the country and back here in VA Beach so I can remember what times were like.
Bad memories that owned me this weekend because they appeared in my dreams, the only day I ever said I love you to my grandfather on my moms side, which happens to be at a time when cancer had taken him so far, all he could say back was I love you too as he sat in chair at my aunt's house, then taking a plane home alone for the first time ever, and only getting to VA. Beach to find out that he had died and that we were taking the next plane back for his funeral.
The day I found out that my other grandfather had cancer and the fact that he died the night of a day where he had felt so good he was talking about the next time we would go fishing together. I've only gone fishing once since then, it was with his brother, I never will again unless it be with my own son/daughter, or his brother.
The day my dog died, I can't say much about this without going nuts, but for anyone who ever has to put down a pet for being in a vegetative state, I feel for you and when I think about all of these things I don't see how life goes on but its does and thats what hurts the most.
Well all I can think of right now is this song so I'll leave with that
God Bless the Broken Road that brought me straight to you....
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.