What Have I Gotten Myself Into Now?!
I'm Now a fucking cheerleading coach, lmao. this should go over well huh? Lol. So i volunteered but shhh. it's my lil sis's team! Payal Patriots! Whoot. Laughs. Every Tues and thurseday from 6- 730 i will be coaching... well asst. coaching... lol. so neways... ryan stopped by with brian, rich and of course jake. i got a hug and kiss and hugged every1 else and then they left... i think sumfin might be up with ryan... i have this bad feeling... he left me a ym message (which he never does!) telling me to IM the 2nd i got it! And when he showed up this morning, he usually automatically clings to me side, but he bearly looked at me! *sits on floor* i hope it was just b/c he was distracted by jake and brian and rich (i was sorta myself lol) being weird and all. And that this isn't the sign of the end... i can't deal with that... not now... my dad is cheating on my mom!!!! AGAIN!!!!!! WTF?! I'm not allowed to have a simple life am i? it has to be hard!!! Urgh! I Can;t take all this shit nemore!!! i really can't... i can't sleep nemore... i'm up all night and day... my body hurts everywhere, my head feels 10 times bigger than it should. I'm sooooo sick... i'm moody (lack if sleep) i'm hoping this coaching thing wil wear me out to where i HAVE to sleep. i'm on the verge of passing out. URGH!! Gotta Jump in shower b4 practice... peace
~Drea
~Drea