My whole world has officially ended...

[hostess79]

well everything seemed to be going fine, then brandon and i went do the final walk through of the house. next thing i know we are back at his house, crying. Me being told to go away, get our of his life, cause he doesn't care anymore. he would rather be off dead instead of live his life. he's tired of seeing me accomplish all this stuff while he can't even land a job. and he continues to see himself fail at everything. and he doesn't want me to support him (even though i have said over and over that it would only be temporary till he got on his feet) no one in his family cares to help him. the week he got back from mississippi his mom didn't even say "hey glad that your back" no she wanted to know when he could start helping with the bills. his sister called him maybe twice, and i talked to him pretty much everyday when he was in mississippi, even made attempts to visit him or bring him down to visit. i've offered to help bring him places to turn in applications and not once asked for gas money, i offered him to come live with us with no mention of money. but i'm the one being told to go away and find someone who is a better man than he is. i would give up all my material possesions to have him. this is the one i want and now i'm being told i can't have him. why would i want someone who has an abundance of money, so they can treat me like shit and tell me what to do. FUCK THAT!!!

my whole dream is falling apart and there's not a damn thing i can do about it. i don't want to go looking for someone else. he was my heart, my laughter, he knew how to hold me just right, we fit together,