I forgot this existed.
So I went to work today at 8 am and it was soooooo cold. I work a hat and gloves(when i could) the whole time i was there. I made donuts and i didn't burn myself, i was glad. I got home and talked to nick on the phone for awhile and then took a nap..i slept forever and now I cannot go to sleep. So i don't have anyone to talk to, other than max and all he's interested in is treats. No one uses this Live journal thing anymore and i don't really care that no one will read this. I'm feeling really jealous of couples who don't have to do the whole long distance thing right now. I feel like Nick doesn't miss me, that he's going somewhere in his life that i can't go with him. He's changed a lot and i feel like i havent changed at all. I need to change, I need to face my fears and get my license and I need to become a lot more independent. I don't know what I'm doing. Urinetown is more of a distraction from that fact. What am i going to do? People keep asking me this and i don't have a clue. I mean i would love to perform, to sing in some way but i just don't have the confidence, i have constant dreams about failure. I want a big change i'm just so sick of the having the same day over and over again. I'm going crazy i'm soo bored. And I want friendship. I mean the closest thing I have to a best friend is Will and I can't talk to him about things I should be able to. I miss hanging out with so many people. I hate that I don't make more of an effort to keep in touch with people and vise versa.
I'm done for now.
I'm done for now.