Confused, and you will notice...
For starters, Me and Melissa are seriously on the rocks, atleast in my opinion. We had an arguement Thursday night, because, I am tired of being passed over as a friend. She said that if she bailed on Ian, that she was gonna hang with Krista. On the same day the movie I asked her to see with me two weeks prior, she set plans with a guy she hadent heard from in who knows how long, and if she bailed on him, I didnt even get the second thought. Her defense, "Krista is a fun new friendship, and this is the first time she has asked me to hang out." Translation, "Lee, you are boring, and we have hung out a million fucking times..." Leave it to me, to be the only person whose feelings that statement would hurt. Leave it to me, to pitch somehwhat of a bitch, defending my feelings, and fighting FOR the love and feelings I have for her.
I know these days, that I can expect much, if any attention or time of hers... But damn, ever since my Lizzie days, I have been trying to right the wrongs that I had made. In a month and a half or so, I havent spent any "good, fun" time with her. I even followed the game plan of old, asking to hang a few days in advance. Throw in the quote of the century, "I am tired of your tantrums." I'll even amdmit, my actions may be seen as tantrums, but, how do you act, when someone dear to your heart, that you wish you could spend the rest of your life with, constantly denies you the slightest bit of attention, and, at the same time, can openly admit and profess how much she loves you, and how much it confuses her what to do about it.
I am so damn mad, but, anyone who knows me, knows that after a short time, my anger turns to pain. Pain is all I feel right now. I don't know if I want to bail, and just be bowling buddies, or wait for a solution to present itself????
Not to mention, Tony is mysteriously mad at me, and I have no idea why. I am just so confused and hurt right now. Definetely could use some guidance, but, I dont know who from. Just looking for answers, and an end to the pain and confusion. Best Wishes For EVERYONE. And a very deep love for that special someone.
I know these days, that I can expect much, if any attention or time of hers... But damn, ever since my Lizzie days, I have been trying to right the wrongs that I had made. In a month and a half or so, I havent spent any "good, fun" time with her. I even followed the game plan of old, asking to hang a few days in advance. Throw in the quote of the century, "I am tired of your tantrums." I'll even amdmit, my actions may be seen as tantrums, but, how do you act, when someone dear to your heart, that you wish you could spend the rest of your life with, constantly denies you the slightest bit of attention, and, at the same time, can openly admit and profess how much she loves you, and how much it confuses her what to do about it.
I am so damn mad, but, anyone who knows me, knows that after a short time, my anger turns to pain. Pain is all I feel right now. I don't know if I want to bail, and just be bowling buddies, or wait for a solution to present itself????
Not to mention, Tony is mysteriously mad at me, and I have no idea why. I am just so confused and hurt right now. Definetely could use some guidance, but, I dont know who from. Just looking for answers, and an end to the pain and confusion. Best Wishes For EVERYONE. And a very deep love for that special someone.